Because I Said So. (A Zayn/Niall Fanfiction) Completed

Chapter 8

I was furious. Of course Zayn didn't know what I was feeling. He only met her two days ago. Just because I let him hug me doesn't mean I'm not pissed at him. He probably doesn't even know her last name. After they talked to me I ran outside the hospital, and went to sit under a nearby tree to try to comprehend what all just happened. You know what? I think I'll just write down everything in my journal. I got the red journal from my purse that I brought with me and wrote everything that happened, and how I felt about it.

1. My sister/best friend dying from a car accident;I feel like it's my fault. First of all, it was my idea to even come here. (To England.) But then again, I feel like its Zayn's fault also. If he never went on my phone and pretty much tracked her down, they wouldn't have been together in the car accident and she wouldn't be dead right now.

2. Me getting mad at Zayn for him not feeling what I feel about her death, I feel as if he didn't care. Something seems like he planned it. Like he wanted her to die. I think he wanted payback. For me rejecting him.

I tried to push that stupid thought away. Zayn wouldn't do that. He was hurt too. Unless- nevermind. I couldn't stop thinking about it. It wouldn't go away, so I was happy when I saw Niall running towards me.

"Ari, are you okay? " Niall said, out of breath. What?" Niall said, raising an eyebrow. "Nothing." I whispered.

I hated Zayn for 1, Him telling me to calm down because Jaci died, yeah, don't tell me that. And 2, me thinking he planned all this. Could I trust him? He may have done that on purpose. I don't know I guess I'll have to test him a bit.