Falling in Reverse-fan fiction

Chapter 5

It's been a month since Jacky and I moved to the states and so far every thing is going good, I'm enjoying the time here. Me and Ryan have grown closer while me and Jacky have grown apart and I don't like it. We fight all the time no matter what and I don't understand why. Ronnie has tried to help but it just dosn't work. I miss the way things use to be where Jacky and I would be almost ireseptable. And everyone has witnessed us fighting at  some point and time and everyone is trying to help put things back to the way they where, but it's no use. I don't know what I did wrong to cause this but I can't take it any more, the only ones keeping me alive are the guy's they've all seen the scares and found me somewhere with a blade dripping with blood.

The other day while they were making the video for the Good Girls, Bad Guys Ryan, Ronnie, Derek, and Ron came looking for me and Jacky they found Jacky in the car but I had stayed home. Later that day when they were done shooting Ronnie, Derek, and Ron came to the house and instead of staying down there with Jacky while Ryan came and got me they all came and for once Jacky came to. They staid out in the hall while Ryan tried to convince me to go down stairs with them, but I wouldn't move, I wouldn't even talk.

Finally the guy's had enough and and Ronnie came in and threw me on his shoulder and went down stairs and wouldn't let me down till I promised to stay down there with them. I agreed as long as Jacky wasn't anywhere near me I would, so he put me down on the couch and took Jacky into the kitchen, the guys fallowed like they all ways do. I could hear Jacky practical scream every answer. I had enough and ran upstairs to my room. I slammed the door and slid down it.

That was a mistake, slamming it, because the guys came running up the stairs, so I ran into the bathroom and searched for my blade. Once I found it I cute four deep cuts. As I finished the fourth one the guy's came in to my bathroom. Derek took my and threw it across the room he then picked me up, placed me on my bed and looked at my arm the up at me, I looked a way when he looked at me, I didn't want to see the disapproving look on his face and in his eyes. Derek was like a brother to me. He and Ron have been there for me when no one else was so the three of us are close like family.

Derek lifted my head so I had to look at him he had tears in his eyes so I gave him a hug and started to cry. I looked around and every one but Jacky was there with me and they were all in tears to. We sat on my bed and talked for a little bit, just mostly about why I cut when me and Jacky fight. When we were done we went down stairs and sat on the couch with Jacky. I sat in between Derek and Ryan while separating Jacky from me was Ryan, Ron, and Ronnie.

I got up to go back to my room but Derek grabbed me and pulled me onto his lap and said that I wasn't going any where so I propped my feet up on Ryan and Ron and they each gave me a funny look so I berried me head in Derek's neck and giggled a bit. When I was done laughing at them they were all looking at me with weird looks except for Jacky so I didn't do any thing because I knew that if I laughed anymore that he would yell at me so I just shut up and closed my eyes for a few moments. When I looked up at the four who cared about me they sheared the same wired look so I just shook my head and put my head back where it was.

A few minutes went by and I looked back up and saw that Jacky was gone so I asked where he went and they said that he went up stairs. I began to worry so went up to his room and knocked on the door to my relief he asked who it was so I walked in and crawled up next to him after closing the door. He gave me a look that said 'what in the world do you think you doing' so I returned the look. I gave him a hug and he kissed the top of my head.

I wanted to stay in that moment forever but I knew that I couldn't. Soon they guy's came looking for me, so I went out but not before I gave Jacky a kiss on the cheek. When I walked out to go find the guy's they had went back down stairs so I went to go get Jacky. I walked into his room, grabbed his arm and drug him down stairs with me. I didn't let go of him till we were where he was sitting earlier. I sat him down and told him to stay I went and sat on Ryan, Ron, and Derek sines Ryan and Derek switched spots I got to sit on Ryan next. They all gave me a worried look and I explained what happened up stairs.