Hi hi I'm back. This is requested by @pwincessyeyin
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Elle pov...
"Jihoon?" I pushes the door open reveling Jihoon sitting on the bed. He's looking at the floor.
I look at him, hesitate before walking near him.
I sit beside him and put my hand on his shoulder. He's still not looking at me.
"She left me." He said. The deadly calm voice scared me. He's not crying when he's suppose to. He's not angry when he should be.
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"Jihoon..." My heart tighten, seeing him like this hurt me. As a best friend of him. My mouth seems like it have nothing to say.
All I can do is stay beside him. Being with him when he's sad. I'm happy I can be with him. But only as a friend. And this fact hurts me.
The first time he told me he got a girlfriend. The first time he told me he gave away his first kiss. The first time he told me how much he love his girlfriend. I'm there. But only as a friend.
And now he's telling me he have his first heart break. I'm still here, as a friend.
Loving him and knowing he won't, hurts me.
But seeing him love a other girl, it hurts me even more.
He suddenly stand up and walk to the cabinet. He takes out a red colour box and walk towards me.
He handed me the box." Help me give it to her Ella. And tell her merry christmas."
He then left the room. I look down at the box.
'Merry Christmas Annie... The very first Christmas gift and the last Christmas gift I'll ever give you...'- Jihoon
I stand up and left the room. I left Jihoon house without saying anything.
I run as fast as I could to her house. I need to tell her Jihoon needs her. She can't just leave Jihoon. I can't see my bestfriend getting hurt.
I know I'm clumsy but I never thought I'll tripped myself at this time.
I fall on the thick snow. The box fall to the ground and there I saw the things inside.
I slowly take the letter that is placed inside. I can't help but read it.
'Dear Annie,
Thank you Annie. If it wasn't for you I wont even know my own feeling. We have such a good time together. Honestly I think you are the best girl I'll ever met.'
I stop reading, holding back the tears. I'm nit sure should I continue reading it. I know it'll only hurt me deeper.
I took a deep breath and continue.
'At first I don't want to break up. Until now I still don't want to. But what you told me really make me think. I love Elle?"
I stopped again. I'm so confuse right now. He...he love me? But he said he don't want to break up with her. So why?
I shook my head and continue reading.
'Do I? I think I'm about to find it out by myself. I still remember the last word you said to me. The Memories we have together sure is nice. But the memories you have with Ella is priceless. If you say I'm your girlfriend then Ella should be the wife. Everyone can see you love Ella more than me. You fall in love with her without knowing. The conversation we have together? I can say 90% of them is about Ella. Jihoon ah.... if you're not sure. Go ahead and find it out. I'm not your best choice. She is. Those words kept on ringing in my head. Thank you Annie. You'll will forever be my best friend. I wish you'll find a better man.
-Jihoon
I start sobbing. The reason why they break up is because of me. He.... he loves me...
I quickly stand up and take the box with me.
I run back to Jihoon house and bang on his door loudly.
After several bangs he finally open the door.
" Ella?" He look down to my hand and saw I'm still holding the box, with a pair of teary eyes.
"Why didn't you tell me?" I said, the tears never stopped. He look at me with worried eyes. He remain silence." WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME?! SHE LEFT YOU BECAUSE OF ME?!"
I shouted as I throw the box back the him.
I know I shouldn't act like this. But it hits me. They break up days ago. He could at least tell me! I'm not sure is it good or not. As far as I know Annie loves Jihoon a lot. So it's shocking when I heard Jihoon said she left him. So I am the person that is between them?! I hate myself! I should be the one who leave him.
"TALK TO ME LEE JIHOON!" I shouted, crying harder by every seconds.
"I'm sorry Ella... but I think I fall in love with you..." Those words...it's the word I wanted to hear for years but why it's hurting me when I finally heard it.
My legs seems like it gave up in me. I fall on the ground and cried my heart out.
"Elle..." Jihoon hugged me.
one second. two. three. four. five.
I gave up and hugged back.
"I'm sorry..." I sobbed out. He patted my back and tell me it's ok.
Friendship or Love?
The heart that wish I'll have. I never thought when I finally have it I'll be like this. I'm sorry for Annie. But I'm more sorry for my own heart.
Time skip...
It's been a year. 2016 christmas eve. What could happen?
I shut my eyes and reached my hand out of the car window. The small smile is kepping on my face.
"Pabo ah you'll catch a cold." I look at the driver seat. Jihoon is driving the car while holding my another hand.
I smiled widely and kissed his cheeks.
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Hello! Christmas is getting near! It's my fav day! even though i wont be receiving any gift but its ok. i'll watch kpop all day XD as usual I love you guys and i always will. exo comeback slays. making me cry huh? anyway love you guys. vote comment follow!
-byun nara-
