I was 14 or so which would mean this happend sometime last year. I was at my cousins house and he had his cousin over. (That would make him my second cousin). We were all in my cousin rons room chilling on his couch. The two boys are pot smokers and were smoking i on the other hand was not. So the boys got really tired and we all decided to go to bed. We were all falling asleep on the couch when ron decided to go to the living room. Leaving me and jarid (my second cousin) alone in the room. I was on one side of the couch and he was on the other. The couch is pretty large so we both had alot of room. But it was still a couch so our bodies were touching i was on the outside and he was on the inside. Idk why but that night i couldent fall asleep. And i had a bad feeling. I should have known. I was so stupid. He would touch my lower leg and leave his hand there. I should have known. Why didnt i leave. Anyway it was really late now. Probably about. Four am. And i still couldent sleep. It seemed like a mineut took an hour. And i hated the feeling i had in my gut. So i started to settel down and got really tired. Once i was almost asleep i felt his hand move. At first he was just touching my lower leg. Which he had already done so i was like alright whatever. But i slowly began to realize that he was rubbing my leg and that he was slowly getting higher. I was frozen i didnt know what to do. He just kept moving his hand up my leg. He reached my area abd he started to rub me. I had no clue what to do. I just tryed to move and once i could i got up. I said nothing and went to the bathroom. Nothing other than that happend. But i felt sooo dirty. I took a shower. I still felt dirty. I knew i didnt want to stay in that house so i went on a walk.
Thus leading in to my third category type thing. I have tryed to kill myself a few times. Six to be exact. I dont remember the order but ill do my best. The first time i tryed to od on ibuprofen which i found out you cant do. Next i tryed to cut a vein in my wrist to bleed to death, but i couldent manage to cut deep enough. Another time is when i tryed to cut my wrists again but couldent. I almost lost my friend who u will find out about later and i took over 60 pills but later threw up.
