Cheats and truths

Cheats and truths

She's wonderful, she always shares her fascinating smile, she's so blonde, her hair's so long, she's an angel.
Luke as always is sitting on his favourite white stone bench. Seated on there in the middle of it, leaning comfortably with his back and his chest leaning on his legs, as he's used to.
He goes to the park every day from 9am to 10pm. He does everything for not missing any moment with „his angel". He never really had the courage to come to her and ask her to play with him, to ask her for the time or just make her any kind of compliment. He mostly worries, she doesn't like him, asking afterwards her parents to change park; as far as possible from this one.

Today he's there again, in front of the gate, but the park's closed. He watches at a big notice hanged on the left on the old styled grey gate, saying „Open from: 7:30 am until 11:00 pm". He never really noticed it, maybe because when he comes at the morning it always have been open and he neither ever really noticed the gate of the park, though.
He can't really explain it, but he got a feeling, a very strange one: it's pushing him on his chest, making him barely breath, he takes it as a bad sing, a very bad one, because he starts to fear. Probably because the gate's still closed and he doesn't have any good reason for the gate's closure. He's sure he went there at the same time as always, maybe a little bit earlier, but not that early, that the park had to be still closed. He starts to worry he won't see her no more, starting fancying already him walking through the whole city searching for her and trying as good as possible not to be noticed from all the people. Maybe a dog on his side, who he met on his way.
He waits for a while: standing, not moving. He can't go back: as he could only move again, when the gate finally opens. Like a worker who's standing in front of his office, waiting for his orderly turn.
Probably closed, but not locked. A joke? A mistake? Luke goes finally ahead with his left leg, puts his hands on the half-frozen gate. He tries first to push and then to pull. Again and again, for a couple of times.
Yes, it's closed. He looks up checking if he could maybe overtake it. No he doesn't have to be noticed. What if someone notices me? What if it's a policeman? Even worse. The best thing is to go back, but where? Where else to go? He doesn't really know any other place he may go at this time place, except this park of course.

Luke feels suddenly his left shoulder heavier. Feeling firstly a shiver passing through his whole back, his chest tries to push inside, as it wanted to touch his heart and his heart' s going more and more to his throat, as it didn't want to be touched and decided to go out from Luke. What is it? What if it's a policeman? Another shiver passes through his whole back and he feels how he becomes heavier and heavier. Maybe, a man who wants to kidnap him? It couldn't be a man, though. It's too soft, neither the police, because they would have already have spoken, even less a tourist. Who is it? Admitted someone was leaning his hand on his shoulder. Luke finally turns his head very slowly to his left. He turns his head mostly up.
„Erin! " Says loudly Luke. He turns to her and does a step back. He feels how his heart's racing more and more, probably everyone could see his heart from his mouth, as his heart decided definitely to go out from his mouth and fly far, far away.
„Hi nice boy! "Says Erin, with a docile voice, tilting her head on the left side, interrupting Luke in his chain reaction of thoughts, smiling.
„Hi... Erin?" Answers timid Luke with a shivering voice.
Erin's watching at him. Luke doesn't really know what to say or what to do, Erin was the last person he thought about when he felt the hand on his shoulder. He feels how his head's getting hotter and hotter, as it would overheat very soon.
„Have you been watching to the notice at the right of the gate or waiting next week?"
Interrupts Erin, who noticed Luke's thoughts-reaction.
„I... I... were just watching..." Luke doesn't know what to answer: he can't just start this conversation with a lie, but he neither doesn't want to tell her he were there just for her, no he can't.
„Don't worry, they are doing some renovations and the park's closed for one week. I didn't want to scare you, I'm sorry. I was just going to the another park as I thought you could have been waiting here and asked my parents to bring me here for catching you and take you with us. If you want..." Erin were talking with a calm voice.
Luke feels how everything going to the normality in his body and feels he's going back to where he is now.
„You, you know me?"
„Of course I do! You are the quiet and a nice boy sitting always on the stone bench at the end of the park. Watching always everyone and everything, aren't you?" Erin's watching at him the whole time and her eyes seams to Luke to get bigger.
„Yes it's me, how did you know..? " Luke's starting to feel a bit scared, as she knew everything about him and his family.
„Silly boy, you are here probably every day, as you would live here. It's impossible not to notice you".
Luke's looking at her, not really knowing what to do or to say. Feeling first his legs, then his whole body slowly becoming of stone again, "Impossible not to notice you". What if someone else noticed me? Maybe someone or more people could be watching at him, having some ideas what to do with him. Maybe...
„You don't want to go with us?" Interrupts Erin once again Luke's thoughts-reaction.
„Yes, yes I would love to... I mean I'd like to go with you..."afterwards, Luke starts to blush a little bit and feeling a heavier breath, he doesn't know why. He wants to jump and smile and shout of happiness, but he doesn't want to show it, maybe because Erin could get a wrong impression of him, thinking that's what he only wanted to, thinking he's not the nice boy, she thought he were.
Erin takes Luke's hand and walks quite fast; looking like a penguin. As they came to the car, Erin tells him to go into it, trying not to lose other time.
Luke doesn't know anything about cars, but this one stayed impressed very well on his mind. Mostly because he never saw such a big: No one would never oversee such a big car, it's all black and even if someone could do an accident with it, this car won't feel anything, neither the people in it, it's too strong. Luke had to laugh silently with closed lips, as soon as he thought about the accident car and this car that kept going street on.
„What are you laughing about?" Asks curiously Erin.
Luke smiles „I feel safe in here".
Erin smiles just back, but she's already in other thoughts.
In the car's everything quiet, everyone's in their thoughts. The dad's driving being very concentrate, the mother probably doesn't really know why the guy's in the car, but she trusts Erin a lot. Luke got a feeling he can't really know where to order: on the on hand, he'd love to speak a lot and say everything he needed to, on the other hand he needs to cry and feels like of stone one more time, like if his heart would be frozen. Erin's probably the happiest girl on earth right now, she's just observing everything which was passing by the window. Smiling as she did the right thing, even if the start wasn't really one of the best. Erin does always listen to her feelings very well and they had never disappointed her, she knows she had to do, what she did. She's happy.
They've been a quarter an hour in the car, but it seemed passed a quarter of a day.
Erin's the first who goes out and takes a big breath. The mother does a shorter breath in the car and takes everything out of her lungs, when she goes out of the car. She goes to her daughter and hugs her strong as she would actually take Erin's energy to herself.
„Time to go out, man" Says Erin's dad after noticing Luke, who were still sitting in the car, watching out as he couldn't take the love passing through the two women.
Finally goes Luke out, too and with short steps goes next to Erin. As she would be his safe. The mother gives a last big hug and kiss to Erin. Then she goes to Luke, strokes his head and wishes a good time to the kids, and goes back to the car again. Two last hoops from the dad saying "bye, bye".
„Where are they going?" Luke starts to be scared.
„They got to work. I'm sorry I didn't say anything in the car."
„Not a problem "It was lied.
„What are we going to do?" Asks impatiently Luke, he's starting not to feel comfortable, mostly because he doesn't know what's happening. He didn't really have someone to talk, since ages and now he practically met a whole family.
„We are going to the park, silly. I know a very beautiful place. Today's a wonderful weather. You can also lay there if you want." Said Erin with dreaming eyes.
„Let's go then?" Says finally Luke
„Oh yes, you don't know the way"
Erin takes his hand and passes through the gate. She doesn't really look were she's going. Totally different is Luke, he starts observing everything as he wants to go there another time and tries to memorize every moment of the other people and any detail of the park and of the way: A couple trying to kiss each other, but disturbed by a little girl and boy; probably their kids. Many people are training their dogs; there will probably be a new dog tournament sooner or later, maybe?. A mother with a pram walking calm, probably just relaxing after a week full of work or just taking time for herself. A guy running with headphones in, probably doing his run for keeping fit or just trying to find his rhythm for keeping fit. Two aged person being next to each other, looking like as they wouldn't watch at the nothing, probably a too long married couple that doesn't have nothing more to say, not even sure if they know each other.
After going their way, Erin stops walking and watches at the skyline. Luke stops walking as she does, standing back to her. So he had more time to think were to go and for not being overwhelmed, by going to the opposite direction, he doesn't like it at all.
Erin, looks to Luke and smiles at him, but she's not really looking that happy.
„Why aren't you happy?" Asks innocently Luke.
„Why aren't you smiling?" Asks cheeky back.
„ ... " looks surprised Luke.
„I like very well when you smile, when you are happy"
„I'm sorry... I.."
„Don't be sorry, you didn't do anything wrong" Interrupts Erin with a very kind voice. „Will you do something for me first?"
„Yes, I think yes..." says Luke uncertain. „What should I do for you, tell me..."
„Smile"
What? Pardon." asks uncertain once again Luke.
At this exactly moment, Luke feels like a thunderbolt going through him. He can't really explain why, but it has to do something with the question of Erin: What if he can't do such a simple thing to her? What if he hurts her because of it? What if she doesn't mean it in the same way as he himself caught?
Many questions are open now. Much time is what he needs, but he has to answer as soon as possible.
„Yes" Says quickly Luke, as he had to answer as fast as possible.
„What yes?" Asks Erin, as she didn't except any question.
„I'll smile..." Answers frustrated Luke as he hurt Erin once again, as he didn't do it well, as everyone were angry at him because he wasn't good enough, good enough once again.
„I don't see you smiling" She puts her head on her left side, smiling.
Luke looks at Erin surprised, not saying anything. Suddenly feeling a warm face, watching at Erin's smile, noticing the sun on his face, not being able to make a decent face and feel's everything so funny and starts to smile. What if he understood her well? Luke's keeping smiling.
„Thank you" Says Erin sincere.
„You are.. I mean I need you to thank"
„Why?" Erin keeps smiling.
„You are strange, I mean strange as in a very good way, like different from all the other people"
„I know I am, but you are too, you really want to be good"
„I.. I.."
„May I ask?" says Erin shyly
„Sure, always"
„You want to talk?"
„About?"
„You know, your family"
„What? How do you know?" roars alarmed Luke
„Don't..."
„ ... " Luke has to cry, but he doesn't. He doesn't like to cry, he never really liked to.
„Well, every kid comes with someone and they: talk, run, cry, smile, laugh, sweat, eat and go back again. You instead, are always here, just watching everything and everyone, alone. I worry, I worry a lot about you" Says Erin with a serious tone and face as she were starting to cry, too.
Luke looks at Erin. He doesn't know if he can trust her. Why shouldn't he? Why should she lie at him? Why is he feeling so scared? Why is he having so many whys"? Luke wants only to cry and run to away. To forget everything. To loose every sense.