Cheats and truths

Cheats and Truths Part 4

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Silence.

It's silent, I just hear some people talking.
I open my eyes. We are sitting on a round table. We: Mum, dad, Marc and me. Mum's telling we are moving, that dad worked all his life for building a new wood house. She has been decorating home, the whole time. Marc worked for the incoming of food at home.
What did I? Why didn't I do anything? Where have I been the whole time? I don't know? Maybe playing? Have I been really playing? I feel so bad for this. Everything's so tasty, but I'm really thirsty. I keep drinking, but I'm still thirsty. Everybody's eating, I'm drinking. Why am I doing always something different? Am I doing so badly? Have I been doing all my life wrong? I keep doing anything wrong. Am I actually part of this family? I can't stop „building" questions, without getting any answer.
Why does the water not helping me „making" me less thirsty?
I could be „very well died. I wouldn't mind. I actually don't know anything. All I know are probably just lies.
There's a circle and I got to through my bones on the red point in the middle of the circle. I keep doing hundred points, I just got to do a million points, then I'm going stop being thirsty. I'm so good! I already did three-hundred points. I'm the best! It's also the most difficult level! Five-, six-, seven-hundred points: It's getting harder, it's not easy throwing bones through the water. I can't do any points yet.
I feel I'm not sleeping since ages, everything's so peaceful: I'm in a box full of water, cool I can breathe!

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I open my eyes, there's much light at first, then I see street-lamps shining. No one's here. I had not to open my eyes, I feel so much more tired yet. I close my eye again, but they open again. I can't close my eyes. It's raining lightly, I stand up. I fall. I stand up slowly, everything hurts. I clean a little again my clothes with my hands. I start walking where the houses are.
I stop, I think about dad, I look back, I see the beginning of the forest; Dad didn't want me no more, he pushed me away. I keep walking to the houses, now on the sidewalk. I'm al alone. I feel lonely, nobody wants me, and everyone left me: First mum, then Marc and now dad. Everything seams to be so far away. As I never lived it, as I just dreamed everything a long time ago. As I'm born all alone, I feel I woke up just now. As it would be my first day on earth.
I keep walking; I try not to be noticed. There are some people, everyone got a big umbrella, covering their heads, I can just see their big jackets and shoes, nothing more. I keep walking at the same gait. I just want to go away from the wood. Hopefully I'm near home, but I don't know this part of city yet. I take a small way, turning on my right. It's a blind street, damn. I can't go back, I just want to go straight on. There's no way back, All I want now is screaming and crying. It's still raining. I don't mind. I'm all wet, I've already been sick this year, I don't want to be sick one more time. It rains always more, I hope nobody noticed me. I notice a door on my left. I try to go in, I feel I can't think smartly yet. I'm tired, sad, ashamed and frustrated. Nobody's there. The room is quite empty, there are only some boxes, a table with a chair, a regard and some shoes laying chaotically. There's another room, it's divided by a colourful „tend". I slowly go in it, there's a man sleeping on a mattress" there's a glue , it's open, I can't see the bung there are some broken shoes, too. He probably felt asleep while repairing all these shoes.
I can't stay, he's a stranger. Where should I go? I have to stay here. I start trying to repair the shoes for him, maybe he will be kind with me. I have to try.
When I end to repair the shoes. I feel I can't be awake for another minute, but I feel better. I feel I did a good job. Probably not, very probably not, but I did my best. He will probably shoot at me and say bad things to me, but I tried. It's cold here, but it's a dry place and it's not raining. I go on the corner, laying my back on the wall, my legs on my chest and close my eyes.

***

The wall isn't actually so bad for sleeping, it's very comfortable, even better than my bed. It's still dark, it must be deep in the night, I feel I can't sleep. My eyes are much closed; I open my eyes.
Wow, what? Where am I? A pillow? Sheets? Oh, the wall. The shoes I tried to repair. Oh my god, the man's watching at me. I go fast out of the bed.
„I didn't want to... I'm sorry!"
„Oh I'm sorry for waking you up" Says he gently interrupting me.
„No you didn't.." my heart's racing one more time.
„That's better. You actually forgot to do something for the shoes. maybe the most important thing"
He noticed the shoes! My heart's racing faster and faster, I feel so scared.
„What?" I ask with a very light voice.
„Come here" he sits in front of the shoes.
I go quickly next to him. My heart's doesn't want to stop beating so fast. I think I'm all red now, feeling so hot.
„Do you see this „door"?" I nod.
He suddenly throws them through it. I hold my breath on. He throws another shoe; shoe after shoe.
„Try yourself" I take one and throw it a little bit more away then the door is.
„Yes, like this!" I need to laugh a little.
At the end we stand up and we go to see the shoes on the other room. We laugh seeing all these thrown shoes.
You see? No shoe broke, you did a great job!"
I blush feeling a little proud. I feel I got to tell him my life, just everything and why I'm here now.
He's whistling , putting all the shoes in their boxes. I sit on the ground.
When he finishes, he gives me some milk and a cornet saying he's not hungry. Everything's so yummy and this time I try not to eat everything quickly.

The „door" knocks
„Go to the other room, please"
I go to the other room without saying anything.
After some time he goes to me, he got some money on his hand.
„This is for you, buy something for the meal later and come on the evening back or little earlier. I'm sorry, I can't have you here and it's much better for you if you use your time being outside. I hope you understand."
I nod again, I take the money and go outside.
I feel well, the days is wonderful today.

After a long walk between streets, dogs, people and more. I decide to go to a park.
I stay there, the whole day.
When I come back, he gives me the dinner. My dinner is normally hot, he got always to put his stuff on the microwave, we normally eat different stuff.

***
This days last for a longer time, I don't know how long, but it kept until one cold day, the doorway of the park was closed. I go in panic and then you go to me.
He breaths in once. Erin takes her hand away from him. As the player ends his song.
Erin's looking at him; he's not moving, watching at the nothing.
„And..?" She asks with a very light voice, as she doesn't want to disturb him.
He doesn't move.
Erin pushes him on his chest softly. He falls on his back, still not moving.
Erin doesn't know what to do. Why didn't she ask his name? She runs away. Promised them not to love anybody else except to him, tears are falling down while she runs back home, never watching behind.

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After five years, Erin falls in love with Mike, a big guy. Not even a week later she stops thinking about the guy of the park. After other five years, Erin and Mike get engaged. Exactly ten years later, she gets a marriage propose of Mike, but that's another story.