My names Maria I lived a perfect lie for a while now I gotten pretty good at my friends think the smile one my faces is real oh haha am funny friends I wish those backstabbing whichs aren't exactly "friends" more like the people that say they are for the sake of there social standing they use to have Hearts back when boys and drama didn't control everything but nope I guess high school changes people and sometimes .......it's for the worst
I woke up my body kinda on autopilot shower change eat head out nothing new nothing interesting just life just me life is all.
My name is Maria I am 16 and you could say I have the perfect life I am popular I have tons if friends loads of money a picture perfect family
Wanna know a secret .......it's all a lie.
Funny when I was seven I believed in happiness and rainbows and butterflies now...I have a dreamless sleep . The sleep I crave why because I get to shut myself away from the world for a bit in that sleep, I just rest in an empty black box. Just the way I like when your alone no one can hurt you expect you but then that's when you realize that's when it hurts the most.
~ FLASHBACK~
April 10th 2004
Ugly
Fat
Worthless
Pig
Good your so annoying you know ugh no one will ever want you.
I knew 5th grade girls are vicious but this is just bad . I asked to go to the bathroom before the tears that are thearthing to spill fall out ,I wouldn't give them that satisfaction no matter what . I calmed down washed my face (god was life easier when you didn't wear mascara ) those words were just the being the being to hurt nightmares pain but just in the inside outside I was perfect I was happy I had friends but I knew better I knew it was a lie.
