"You're My Reason To Live" { A Cole Pendery Fan Fiction}

Chapter 4

At first I just stood there with the shape of an ‘O’ on my face. “What the…” was all I could say at first. “CARLY!” Dalton shouted picking me up and spinning me around till I was dizzy, I was in too much shock to resist.

Dalton put me down laughing putting a finger under my chin and closing my mouth. “SURPRISE!” they all then shouted making my mouth drop back open again while I thought of words to say. “Oh my god how? What?” I asked as a smile grew on my face slightly now realising these where three of the people I had left behind that day, Dalton, Dana, and Gabe, three of the boys I had missed so much.

“Well now that is a secret.” Dana said tapping his nose giving me a big hug followed by Gabe. That was not a secret I knew too well how they had found about me; Kat.

“Oh god typical she cannot keep that big mouth shut!” I shouted emphasizing the word mouth.

“Shit she is going to kill us now! We told her we wouldn’t do anything!” Gabe moaned, yes that was true they should be worried Kat was an, urm powerful person let’s put it that way.

I laughed at their worried expressions as they started to walk towards the door to enter until…

“Mom, who is that?” Lily’s voice came from the room next to me making my smile drop, I had completely forgotten about everything.

“Who on the earth is that?!” Dalton asked with a look of confusion on his face. I searched for words in my head but nothing came, all that I could think of saying was ‘shit, shit, shit, shit’.

“Urm that well that is urm…” I thought for a second scratching my head but before I could reply Lily came running into the hall way with chocolate all over her mouth.

“Mom did you not hear me I said who is at the door!” She said putting her hands on her hips, she was a very demanding 3 year old.

“Oh urm sorry darling I didn’t and I think you know who they are.” I said quietly looking other to my friend’s whose jaws were nearly touching the floor.

“Oh my gosh no way Uncle Dalton, Uncle Dana and Uncle Gabe!” She shouted running over to them hands raised with a look of happiness on her face. They all stood there shocked looking from me to Lily as their jaws dropped further. Dana was the first to speak slightly shocked and stuttering kneeling down to Lily’s height making little Lily’s face light up.

“You know who we are?” he asked confused.

“Yeah of course I do silly Uncle Dana!” Lily laughed wrapping her arms around Dana’s neck making him pick her up and bring tears to my eyes. “I know all of you there is you Uncle Dana, Uncle Gabe, Uncle Dalton, Uncle Will and Auntie Kat, you are all Daddy’s and Mom’s best friends.

Oh shit there was no going back now, well done Lily. I thought to myself as everyone looked at me again.

“Mom and Daddy’s best friends?” Dalton stuttered out.

I nodded slightly before speaking rubbing away a tear escaping from my eye. “Dalton, Gabe, Dana meet Lily, mine and…” I gulped slightly before saying his name and confessing. “…Cole’s daughter.” The tears were falling so much now that was it the secret was out.

“Mom, why are you crying shouldn’t you be happy they are here!” Lily said clapping her hands cutely.

“Yeah I’m sorry Lily, I’m so sorry all of you.” I apologised shakily rubbing the tears away.

“Hey you don’t need to be sorry come here!! Dalton says and it had all come out, everything was going to be ruined.

“Um Lil, do you mind if I borrow Gabe for a minute so me and the guys can have a catch up. I tried to pull Gabe away from sitting on the sofa watching the kid’s channels with Lily.

“But Batman is just about to come on and Gabe said he likes that!” Lily protested, typical.

“Hey how about we record it and I will watch it with you later.” Gabe suggested putting Lily down to watch TV on her own and walking towards the kitchen to join Dana, Dalton and I.

“Fine but if any of you make my mom cry I’m warning you I know your weaknesses especially you Dana, my spider is ready and waiting!” Lily shouted making us all laugh slightly apart from Danawho was doing an uneven chuckle looking more worried. I closed the door leaving Lily alone and went to join the boys at the table passing them each a drink, I had calmed down a bit since they had first found out but was still a bit shaky and quiet. How could I have been so careless to just let them in again?

“I’m guessing you want an explanation.” I sighed as they stared at me waiting.

“Well yes that might help since last time we saw you, you didn’t have a kid, who is adorable by the way and you were storming off leaving us all for a ‘job’ only for none of us to hear from you for 4 years apart from Kat, who we found out had been in touch the other week.” Dana said taking a sip of his drink.

“Oh god I’m such an idiot! The whole plan is ruined now I knew I couldn’t do it!” I began to cry again thinking about it all.

“What are you on about Kat, don’t cry please it’s fine just explain.” Gabe said rubbing my back reassuring me to go on.

I took a large sigh as I began to explain. “It was on that day were I left everything, where I told you about leaving for a job and the fight with Cole, it was all fake, it was all put on.”

“What so you and Cole didn’t break up?” Dalton asked.

“No, we did that part was true but it wasn’t because of the job it’s because I found out I was pregnant that day and well Cole didn’t want the baby, his career with you guys would be over and it was just beginning, it would have all be ruined I couldn’t let that happen so I said I would leave and not come back to any of my old life, I did it for him so we put on the act and I left.”

“You what?! That was the reason you left and he let you?!” Dalton shouted full of anger.

“No, please don’t be mad, I’m fine me and Lily have been fine, we have lived a nice life together we didn’t need him, I brought up the idea.” I defended lying slightly god I felt so bad how could I make this look so awful, wait no never mind look it was awful, the whole thing was just fucked up my life for four years had been a huge lie.

“Car, the boy let you leave your friends family your whole life just to hide his mistake, he shouldn’t have agreed to in the first place!” Dana protested getting equally as angry.

“I know he shouldn’t but it’s not like I was completely on my own, I had Lily and she didn’t grow up without knowing about her Dad or anything, she knows who he is and everything and she has watched him on TV, she looks up to him and she knows full well what a great Dad he is, she knows everything about you boys.”

“I still can’t believe this Carly, you’re my cousin he had no right to make you stay away from any of us!” Dalton protested.

“I know but he didn’t I had my own free will and choose to do it so I’m equally as bad here!” I shouted back at him leaving him slightly baffled.

“What is with all the shouting who’s upsetting who? Is it you Dana are you upsetting my Mom because I have my spider here!” Lily shouted from the other room making us all just laugh as Dana backed away from the wall slightly.

“See she even knows about Dana and his spider thing.” I told them laughing slightly. “Please don’t be mad at me or Cole guys I’m so sorry I didn’t tell you, I really am but please I beg of you don’t upset Lily or tell Cole about today please.” I begged after a few seconds of silence.

“But..” They all said but were cut off by my daggers knowing to shut up.

“No shh you know it’s for the best.” I smiled at them maybe everything could work out alright.