Bullying and how it can lead to suicide.

Someones story

This was submitted to me by one of my readers and this is her story.

I grew up in a small town,but my family use to live in a farm near it.So most of the population descended from European countries,just like mine,but the fact that i lived in a farm,I got a lot of sun and my skin was more tanned than any of my colleagues,I have green eyes but it didn't make any difference for them.I was a farmer dark skin,and I was very smart for my age.And there,it starts to happen from 2nd grade to 8th grade.We were the same colleagues from 1st till 8th grade, then, I was the tallest one, when I was 12 years old they started to call me names like toothpick and palm tree and etc.5 of my colleagues where daughters of the teacher of the school, so the worse one was the daughter of the school headmaster.It gave her some position like a goddess on school, the prettiest, the richer and the blondest.She was always humiliating me, calling me names, telling me that I was so stupid, dumb, and I was afraid to speak out.When I was 13 years old, all the girls in my class started developing their bodies, but me, even the next year I was plain like a board.So after many times I arrived home crying from school, I just thought in my 14 years that this life wasn't for me, and I drunk like half a liter of a very poisonous pesticides to try to end my life. I endured this torture for 8 years, without no one paying attention to the bullying, you cant imagine how I suffered, all what I described above was a everyday thing. They even use to steal my lunch, and as a farmer, we didn't have much money, so many times I went back home starved.Only after 30 days in the hospital my parents decided to change my school.This happened to me, it's real and left many insecurities for the rest of my life! I am 34 years old now, but every time that I look at myself in the mirror I don't see a beautiful woman that everyone says that I am, I just see a scared person with tanned skin.And my life is in cycles of good times and depression,after I tried to kill myself I couldn't get rid of the antidepressants.

I would just like to say that bullying someone is wrong and it might not affect you but it affects the people who you are bullying and I would know I have been bullied for the past 4 years and still am but it doesn't get to me like it used to because I'm used to it I'm not saying that you should ignore it I'm saying that if you don't stand up for yourself no one else is and its just going to happen again and again and again  and its not going to stop its just going to get worse before it gets better. So if you or you see someone getting bullied stand up for them because if no one stands up for them they feel like they are alone and after awhile they are just going to get use to it and thats not what anyone wants and then eventually they are going to be so depressed and they are just going to give up and try to kill themselves or even worse starve themselves or even cut ,anything to make the pain go away but it doesn't they just get so used to it they try to find new ways to make the pain go away and then eventually they are just done and then they kill themselves and that just makes there family fill with dread because they feel it's there fault that they didn't notice it sooner and its not there fault it's the bullies fault and it doesn't even faze them they just find a new person to make fun of and thats just wrong.So help me out and try to stop bullying and if you see someone being bullied stand up for them because that could make their day and you could save a life.Thank you guys so much and spread the word about bullying and it's affects.Thank you.The video at the top is called cyberbully Taylor breath me the song is by Sia the scene is from a movie called Cyberbully.I know it's sad but it shows you the affect bullying can have.Thank you.Word count 769 words.