I caught myself.

Chapter two

Chapter two.

I woke up to the lovely smell of bacon. If there was one thing I loved more than anything else in the world, it was bacon. I threw my long blonde hair into a pony tail and threw on some casual clothes. My mum stood in the kitchen, cooking breakfast. I walked up to her and grabbed a plate of crispy, freshly cooked bacon.

"What are your plans for today?" Mum asked me. Clearing my mouthful of bacon, I answered her.

"Just shopping and stuff." I replied. More like breaking up with jack. Mum didn't have much of an insight to my life, and I would love to keep it that way. She knew I had a boyfriend but that's it. Her and jack had met each other about a year after we had started dating. The only reason they met was because we were all going to Paris for a holiday. Mum goes to Paris every six months, to see our relatives. Jack was supposed to be coming with us next week, to paris. My heart fluttered as I remembered my last Paris trip with jack. It was amazing, no one had ever made me smile as much as jack did. I pushed my plate of bacon out of the way, losing my appetite. I wanted to see jack. Not because I was excited to breakup with him-truth behold, I was actually dreading it, but because I missed him.

I grabbed my keys and headed to out to my car. A s I unlocked my door, I looked over at Carter's house. He was probably already at work, seeing as it was Monday. I was thankful I had block exams- which is a week before the school holidays start where you only come to school when you have an exam. Jack had finished school last year, so he was working full time. But I was pretty sure he had night shift tonight, which meant I would be able to see him. To break up with him.. I swallowed the lump in my throat as reality hit me... Again. I was breaking up with someone I loved deeply. I shook my hair out of my face and backed out of my driveway, heading over to the richest part of town, to visit jack.

He clearly wasn't expecting me, because as I entered his room, I saw his sleeping figure sprawled out on his big double bed. He had his air con on, making his room freezing. I kicked my shoes off and joined him, crawling under his arm and laying my head on his chest. He stirred a bit, and through closed eyes, I felt him kiss my forehead. How could I ever throw this away? It was perfect. His warm body felt like it belonged with mine, which it did. We belonged together. I decided against breaking up with him. We have been through so much together, he loved me and I loved him.

After a few hours, I looked around the room. I recognised jacks room and looked next to me, but he wasn't there. I got up and exited his bedroom, seeing him sitting on the couch laughing at the tv. He had a beer in his hand and his smile was so genuine. It made his beautiful blue eyes light up. His cheeks were slightly red, showing that he hadn't awoken that long ago. I went back into his room and looked in his mirror. He obviously had friends over. I took my hair out, letting it cascade down my back. I was already warm in my skinny jeans, tank top and woollen jacket. I opened his drawer and found a pair of my blue anklet socks, which I put on and took my jacket off, so I didn't look ridiculous. I headed back out to his lounge room and spotted at least ten other people sitting on the couches. Jack turned his head and saw me approaching him.

"Hey baby." He said, holding out an arm, indicating me to sit with him. I smiled at him and snuggled up to him on the warm couch. I felt his chest rumble as he laughed at something his mate said. I didn't know many of his mates and didn't have much to do with them, so I grabbed his iPad off of the coffee table and started playing my favourite game- Candy Crush. By the time I had completed I don't know how many levels, jacks mates were leaving. They all said goodbye to both of us and left. I looked to jack and he was finishing off his drink. I quickly started another level so that I didn't have to get him another drink.

"So what do you want to do today?" He asked, pitting his empty drink on the coffee table. He turned to me, brushing his long blonde hair out of his face.

"What do you mean?" I asked. We never really went out and did much.

"We'll you're my girlfriend, I want to spoil you more and make up for what I did." He stated. I sighed.

"Jack it's fine, I alr-" I was cut off by jack shouting.

"No! No it fucking isnt fine. I can't hit my girlfriend, what kind of low life prick does that? I'm meant to be protecting you from the guys who do that to you! I'm sick. I'm fucking twisted. You really don't deserve me Jade." He shouted out of anger. I stood up and put my hand on his cheek, trying to calm him down. He looked down and tears rolled down his face. He couldn't even look at me because he was that eaten up. This was so strange, he never showed this much emotion before.

"I can feel you slipping away jade. Emotionally. I don't like it. I don't want to lose you, I love you. So much." He said softly, his blue yes connecting with mine. He had my hand clutched to his chest now. I bit my lip so that tears didn't show.

"I wish we could just... Go back to when it was all easy." I muttered.

"It's only gonna get harder, and the last thing I want is to do this alone. I want- no, I need you. We promised each other forever." He said, his voice dripping with emotion. Heartfelt. He had never been this emotionally wrecked before. I moved closer, burying my face into his chest. His hands enveloped me, clutching my body close to his. Maybe this would work. Maybe it didn't have to end harshly. I pushed carter out of my mind as I enjoyed the moment. I missed these moments.

"Jack." I said. He nodded.

"I love you so much, but we are breaking up. You don't love me- you don't hurt the people you love." I stated. He tensed slightly and I took this opportunity to leave. I walked straight away from his warm arms and left him standing there with a look that made me sick to the stomach, a look that hinted his pain. I know, because that's the look I had ever since he first hit me.