Can you keep a secret (lol dont read this)

the decision

Desire's POV

I sit in my room, wondering how the date will go. Or at least how I hope it will go. But, the thought strikes me, how will I get out? You see, my dad doesn’t really like me. I mean, he takes care of me, buys me school clothes and feeds me, even if it’s only a little bit of food. It’s just that, when my mom died, he had no one else to take his sadness and anger out on. I’m used to his abusive remarks and hits, but that doesn’t mean I like it. I just don’t dare to tell anyone about it because he’s my dad and, even though he sometimes hurts me, I still love him. Plus, he’d be angrier at me, and that would get us nowhere.

Even though I know all of these things, I have found only one way to escape the pain. Ironically, it’s by more pain. As shamed as I am to say it, I cut myself. I mean, what else and I supposed to do? There’s nothing except my blade. I just have to accept that. My social life is practically none existent and when I bathe I am allotted a certain amount of time that I must be in and out. I don’t come out of my room because he doesn’t really like me to. I’m a reminder of everything bad in his life, I guess.

Which leads me to my dilemma at the moment. I don’t know how this date is going to work. If I can’t come out of my room how am I supposed to get there? I do climb out of my window a lot, but I’m three stories up and my dad took away my sheet so I don’t have a rope anymore. And Niall can’t come pick me up because Dad will see him and take aways my dinner for three days. I guess that means I don’t have transport, either. The only person he lets me have over is Skylar. But not because of me, because of her.

She’s not afraid to stand up to him, unlike me, and I guess he likes that. I get a call from Skylar.

"So, what times the date?" she asks.

"I don't know if i can go. My dad'll never let me out." I answer.

"You want me to come over and tell him to let you go? Knock his mind straight?"

"I wish you could, but I don't think anything will change his mind."

"Let me try! Please, please, please! I don't want to go on the date without you." I can feel her giving me the puppy dog eyes

"Fine, don't let me down."

"Great! I'll be over in five."

She hangs up. I hope she can convince him to let me go. I really want to get to know Niall. He seems like a nice guy. I hear the doorbell ring and my dad’s heavy footsteps. The door opens and he yells at the person who is standing before him. Most likely Skylar. 

"What do you want?"

I open the door just a crack to see if i can see Skylar. She’s standing in the doorway.

"Mr. Johnson, I would like to take Desire out to the city with me tonight. Can she come?" she asks. I see my dad scratch the back of his neck.

"I don't know, she’s not feeling well." He lied.

"Mr. Johnson, I was just talking to Desire five seconds ago, she’s fine." she retorts.

""Well, she’s grounded so she’s not allowed out of her room."

"She’s been grounded for three years now let her come with me."

'NO. She's not -" Skylar cuts him off.

"Mr. Johnson, Desire is coming with me tonight, no matter how sick or how grounded she is. See, the thing is, I've heard all of your little lies." she answers. Wow impressive. He just stands there looking down at his feet, looking defeated.

 "Well, I guess she go out for a little while... I don't want her." He mumbles under his breath.

"Thank you." Skylar looks up to me like she's known I’ve been watching and motions me to come with her. I grab my bag and gratefully follows her out the door.

"Thank you" I say.

"I wouldn't have been the same without you; what else could I do?"

When we got to her house she turns to me and clapped her hands

"Alright! Time for the makeover!" OH, Great, I thought. Just what I needed. She looks at my clothes and shakes her head.

"So last season" she says. I laugh. 

She pulls out an orange cowgirl dress with a brown belt and holds it up to me.

"Perfect!" She chirps.

She tells me to put it on so I go to the restroom and change and then come back. She yelps with excitement. Woo, I think sarcastically in my head. She guides me to her vanity and sits me down. I could almost fall asleep when she does my makeup. All she pulls out is blush, eye shadow and lipstick. This is my first real  first date so I am very excited, but for Skylar it's, like, the millionth time and she’s all chill and relaxed while I’m over here shacking like a rattle. I can't wait until seven!

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i think this chapter is longer than the others but still short so sorry! tel me what you thought and if i should keep going. And i also need suggestion!!

 edited by ebeth22

:) nattie

(uh oh here we go with the smiley faces again)