When I can't see my house anymore, my body automatically relaxes all the tension that was being held in this little fragile body of mine. I turn on Three Days Grace and the song that's playing starts to make me cry.
"...no matter how hard I try, you're never satisfied, this is not a home, I think I'm better off alone...you turn off the TV and you scream at me, I can hardly wait until you get off my case.."
My tears stream down harder and I can barely see where I'm going. Somehow I reach Ciara's house without crashing. I see her running up to me in her P.J.'s and with a bedhead. I don't even get out of the car all the way when she's squeezing the life out of me, well what is left of me anyways. With a shock, I get slapped on the same left cheek.
"Ow!!! What was that for?!"
I look in the car mirror and see my left cheek bright red.
"Why do I always have to keep asking about what the heck is going on here?"
Ciara grabs my arm and drags me to her room and I sigh knowing this is the last time I'll be in this room. I look at the pictures on her mahogany night stand. One is a picture of her and her girlfriend, another is one with her family, and I feel a tear roll down my cheek.
Why can't I have a family that accepts me for who I am? The last picture is of us rocking out. I'm playing the drums and she's playing the guitar, we called ourselves the rainbow sisters. I smile remembering how much fun we had together. I hear her come in and she hands me a pack of ice with an apologetic expression on her face.
I wince when it touches my cheek, and we sit there in silence until I'm able to talk.
"I'm running away to Florida, I can't take my mom anymore, I'm going to live with my girlfriend temporarily until I can afford and apartment. You know I can't stay here for long because my mom knows this would be the first place I would go to. Since I'm going to be 18 in a few days, she won't have control over me for long."
I look at her and she looks like she's about to cry. She nods in understanding.
"Wait, I got you a present for your birthday."
She starts looking for it until she finds it. She hands it to me with an excited expression on her face. It's wrapped in rainbow wrapping paper because she knows it's my favorite thing in the whole world. It's flat like a picture frame would be. I tear it open like a caveman, I look at it and see that I was right, it is a picture.
It's the two of us, we both of our tongues sticking out with our hands up in a rock n'roll symbol. The frame is rainbow and it is covered with little drum sticks, guitars, and hearts. On the top it says
"Best friends forever and always, I'll be there for you until the end of time. I love you booger brains! – Ciara"
My eyes start watering and I give her the biggest hug and the impact knocks her off balance. Somehow she ends up on top of me and we just stay there staring at each other. Butterflies seep into my stomach which starts making me ultra-confused. Why hasn't she gotten off of me yet?
She starts moving her head closer to me and then all of a sudden her lips are on mine. Her lips are soft and they also feel good on mine. I surprise myself by kissing her back, I never dreamed of cheating, but here I am kissing my best friend. Ciara kisses me more urgently now, she slips her tongue into my mouth and then she starts moving her hand towards my breast. I push her hands off me and I lean away from her. I start crying wondering how the hell my life got so screwed up.
"What was that for Ciara?"
"I just wanted to know what it was like to kiss you before I never see you again."
I sigh and she starts messing with a strand of her dark brown hair that always ends up in her face. Her face is filled with embarrassment. I tuck the strand behind her ear and I pull her in for another kiss. The kiss was gentle and not as rough as before. I lean away and she bites her lip.
"Is that better?"
"No" she replies in frustration. "The thing is, I've had a crush on you for a while and I didn't want to ruin our friendship because of it."
I look at her with a shocked expression. How have I been so oblivious to this? I didn't even think of her that way, but now is not the time or place to do that.
"I have to go or my mom will find me. Promise you'll facetime me every night?"
She gives me a huge bear hug and whispers in my ear "I promise" I get in the car with her present. She tells me to wait and she runs into the house. I check the dashboard and see that it's already 6 pm. The plane to Florida departs at 7.
Ciara comes back with a bunch of food and has an envelope in her other hand. I put the food in the passenger seat and I look at the envelope and see a bunch of cash.
"What's this?"
I give her a confused look
"It's one thousand dollars to help you on your way."
"I can't take this Ciara!"
I start handing her back the envelope but she just pushes it away
"You need it more than I do"
I give her a huge hug and turn my car on. Hopefully the next destination won't be so confusing.
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Love me from far away
Teen FictionLong distance usually doesn't work well with a lot of people. But with Vanessa it's worked for a year. she finally gets the chance to meet her girlfriend for the first time.
