Forever Frozen

3. More Questions and Thoughts

"Are you okay?" I didn't say anything. "Okay...How do you feel?" " I feel like you should get out of my room" I replied." She looked at me one more time and left.

5 years later...

Wɛ'ʋɛ ʍօʋɛɖ 5 ɖɨʄʄɛʀɛռt tɨʍɛs ɨռ tɦɛ ʟast 5 ʏɛaʀs ɮɛċaʊsɛ I'ʋɛ sɛɛʍɛɖ tօ stօք ɢʀօաɨռɢ, I sɦօʊʟɖ 17 ɮʊt I ʟօօҡ tօ ɮɛ 12. Eʋɛʀ sɨռċɛ tɦɛ ɮɨtɛ I ɦaʋɛռ't ɮɛɛռ tɦɛ saʍɛ. I'ʋɛ ɮɛɛռ stʀօռɢɛʀ aռɖ ʄastɛʀ, tɦɛ ʟɨɢɦt ɨs sʊքɛʀ ɨʀʀɨtatɨռɢ ɮʊt ɨt ɖօɛsռ't ɦʊʀt me. I sɦօʊʟɖ ɮɛ 17 ɮʊt I stɨʟʟ ʟօօҡ 12. I'ʋɛ ɦaɖ a stʀaռɢɛ ʊʀɢɛ ʄօʀ sօʍɛtɦɨռɢ tօ ɖʀɨռҡ աɦɛռ I'ʍ aʀօʊռɖ քɛօքʟɛ. Aռɖ tɦɛɨʀ ռɛċҡs ʟօօҡ AMAZING aռɖ I ʝʊst աaռt tօ ɮɨtɛ ɨt. I'ʋɛ ɦaɖ tɦat ʊʀɢɛ aʀօʊռɖ aռɨʍaʟs tօօ, ɨ ɖɛċɨɖɛɖ tօ ʟɛt tɦat ʊʀɢɛ taҡɛ օʋɛʀ աɦɛռ I'ʍ aʀօʊռɖ aռɨʍaʟs ɮɛċaʊsɛ tɦɛʏ aʀɛռ't ɦʊʍaռs. I'ʋɛ ɖʀaռҡ ɖɛɛʀ, ɮɨʀɖ, sզʊɨʀʀɛʟ, ɖօɢ, ċɦɨքʍʊռҡ, aռɖ ɮɛaʀ ɮʟօօɖ. It աas sօ satɨsʄʏɨռɢ. Mʏ ɛʏɛs ɦaʋɛ aʟsօ ċɦaռɢɛɖ ċօʟօʀs, tɦɛʏ աɛռt ʄʀօʍ a ċɦօċօʟatɛ ɮʀօառ tօ a ʀօʏaʟ ɮʟʊɛ. I ʟɨҡɛ ɨt ɮʊt ɨts աɛɨʀɖ. Mʏ քaʀɛռts ɦaʋɛ taҡɛռ ʍɛ tօ tɦɛ ɖօċtօʀ's ɮʊt tɦɛʏ ċօʊʟɖռ't ʄɨռɖ aռʏtɦɨռɢ աʀօռɢ. Bʊt I ҡռօա աɦat I aʍ. I'ʋɛ ɖօռɛ ʍʏ ʀɛsɛaʀċɦ. I'ʍ a ʋaʍքɨʀɛ. Tɦɛʀɛ ɨs ռօ օtɦɛʀ ɛxքʟaռatɨօռ ʄօʀ tɦɨs. I staɮɮɛɖ ʍʏ sɛʟʄ ɨռ ʍʏ aʀʍ aռɖ ɨt ɦɛaʟɛɖ ɨռɦʊʍaռʟʏ ʄast. I ɦaʋɛռ't sʟɛքt ɨռ ʏɛaʀs aռɖ ɨʍ ռօt ɛʋɛռ tɦɛ sʟɨɢɦtɛst ɮɨt tɨʀɛɖ. I'ʍ ɢɛttɨռɢ ʊsɛ tօ ɨt, I'ʍ aċtʊaʟʟʏ staʀtɨռɢ tօ ʟɨҡɛ ɨt. I ʟɨҡɛ tɦɛ ռɛա stʀɛռɢtɦ, sքɛɛɖ, ɛʏɛs, ɨʍʍօʀtaʟɨtʏ, ɦɛaʟɨռɢ ʄaċtօʀ, aռɖ ռօt ɦaʋɨռɢ tօ sʟɛɛք tɦɨռɢ. I քʟaʏ ɮasҡɛtɮaʟʟ, ʄօօtɮaʟʟ, sօċċɛʀ, ɮasɛɮaʟʟ, ʋօʟʟɛʏɮaʟʟ, aռɖ I'ʍ a քaʀt օʄ tɦɛ tʀaċҡ aռɖ sաɨʍ tɛaʍ. Wɛ'ʋɛ աօռ aʟʟ օʄ օʊʀ ɢaʍɛs ɮɛċaʊsɛ օʄ ʍɛ. I ɦaʋɛ sʊքɛʀ aċʊtɛ sɛռsɛs. I ҡռօա աɦɛռ sօʍɛtɦɨռɢ ɨs ċօʍɨռɢ ɮɛʄօʀɛ ɨt ċօʍɛs. I ċaռ sɛռsɛ ɛʋɛռ tɦɛ sʟɨɢɦtɛst ċɦaռɢɛ ɨռ ʍʏ ɛռʋɨʀօռʍɛռt