To Luke

first impressions

i first saw you when you were walking in the language arts hallway. i had just got my first f in my life in chemistry and i was pissed to say the least. i had the biggest bitch face plastered on my face and i'm positive that if anyone saw me during that passing period, they probably thought i was really mean. but you, you didn't. (at least that's what you told me after the first awkwardly cringing time we had sex.) you were wearing a beanie on your head even though multiple teachers were telling you to take it off since it was against dress code. there were some little hairs peaking out begging for someone's fingers to run their fingers through. your hands were wrapped around the straps of your backpacks, clutching them while walking aimlessly. someone yelled my name behind me but i didn't acknowledge them. i think you heard them calling my name (which you later told me that you did)  because at that moment you looked at me. me. your crystal blue eyes glanced at my green and in that moment i believed in that moment that it was love at first sight. even though prior to that moment i was a firm believer in that not being true, but with you on that day after i got a 58 on my stoichiometry test, i believe that it was love at first sight. god it was just that you were looking so good in your skinny jeans and t-shirt. i've seen guys in that same outfit before but damn it just looked so good on you. i wanted to throw myself at you which is so hypocritical of me since i told my friend the day before to never do that for any guy, but you were an exception. there was even this little smirk on your face that complimented your little lip ring that made me squirm when i walked. but after you glanced at me for that millisecond with your little smirk, you looked back towards your path to your next period. i had walked this way so many times already in the school year and i had never seen you before. i hoped that i would see you again, because hopefully you could make me forget about any other failing grade i would receive in the future. because sure i would probably get another f in my high school career, but if you could make me laugh and smile about it and make me forget that grades aren't the most important thing in the world, then you would be the best person for anyone to call mine.