I see you when I dream and god dammit I've never felt so. Beautiful.
I want to go back and I want to be us but I know that trust will never return and we can never be whole, again. I need to feel your breath mingling with mine as we both intertwine and no I won't mind if you cry or, throw more punches. This time. I fell in love with who you could be but I don't think that day is coming and all I'm left with are crushed hopes and ideas swirling around in my dreams I want to. Scream! Because all I ever want to do is sleep I miss you I don't feel clean. Anymore. You hurt me and kissed all my wounds I felt like Humpty Dumpty and you were the knights but you also caused the fall and it's so care to believe that you care. At all. I found a home with you and now I think I'll forever be lost. In the woods I'm running I can't get out please won't you reach out and grab my hand i know you're just a broken man but I can hold you together I know it I know it I know it please we can make it we can we can but. Stop. I'm in the woods. It's dark and, I'm reaching for your hand but I touch something else instead it's guilt, it's a monster made of memories you call out but I don't stand a chance and neither do you or us or anyone else it grabs my arm I know it can't do me any physical harm but god dammit I'm scared because I know how this story ends and i see. Me. Sitting alone in a room, listening to your soft snores and reading your secret words. About me. To her. And her and her and her and her and FUCK it's storming again I'm on my knees in the dirt I'm at the end of my rope I can't cope. Without you.
