Married to the Money (Bwwm)

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"Did I kill it?", I asked.

"No the baby is still alive," Marciello said. I frowned.

"I'm sorry Belle," Marciello said.

"Save it for a bitch who gives a fuck," I said.

"Belle, your so complicated," Marciello groaned.

"I'm not the complicated one, one minute your nice and loving and then the next your beating me. I won't be like your mother I'm not sticking around for this shit," I said. Hurt and pain flashed through his eyes.

"I know and I'm going to go to anger management," Marciello said.

"Yeah like that's going to make any thing better," I said.

"Why are you being like this?", Marciello asked.

"You've turned me into a bitter black bitch, so now you have to deal with it," I said. Marciello sighed.

"You and all of them other n*ggas. Fuck all of you, I hate all of you," I hissed.

"What other dudes are you talking about?", he asked.

"None of your business," I grumbled.

He sighed, " Are you hungry?"

"No, if a knife didn't kill this baby then starvation will," I said.

"Belle! This is a human life we are talking about, you can't just try to kill it," he said.

"Well you've killed thousands of people," I said.

"Yes, I have. But none of them were innocent this baby didn't do anything to you. Don't punish the baby because your mad at me," he said.

"Fine I'll keep it. Go get me a burger and some fries," I ordered.

"Okay Belle," he said. I watched as he left out the room. This n*gga didn't even have the courtesy to bring me to a hospital. I heard a knock on the door.

"Come in," I said. Jackie came in teary eyed.

"I thought you were going to die," she cried.

"I'm sorry I didn't mean to make you worry. I was just trying to get this baby out of me," I said.

"So you stabbed yourself?", she asked.

"As crazy as it sounds, yes I did," I said.

"Belle you could have harmed yourself," Jackie said.

"I know a deep part of me wanted that," I said.

"Why? I know Marciello loves you, he's just been on edge lately. His dad died and his mom got the death penalty. Maybe he's hurting you because he's scared of losing another important person in his life. I'm not saying it's okay for him to do it, but that's probably why he is doing it. In his twisted mind he thinks that if he puts fear in you then you'll be to scared to ever leave him," Jackie said.

"I'm still mad at him, but if he continues to hurt me I'm leaving," I said. I did not want my child growing up in a dysfunctional family.

"Your dad called again, he wants to talk to you," Jackie said.

''No," I said.

"Belle!", Jackie yelled.

''You don't understand Jackie, what he did to me," I said.

"Wow he married you off to a sexy mobster, that's every girls dream!", she exclaimed.

"That's not it! He did more to me, more than you'll ever know. And every time I see his fucking face it brings the memories back up," I said. I couldn't control the few tears that escaped my eyes, I wiped them off roughly.

"I'm sorry Belle, I didn't mean to make you cry," Jackie said.

"It's not your fault. I just have so much baggage and what Marciello is doing now is bringing it back up," I said.

"Just hang in there I know in my heart things will get better for the two of you," Jackie said.

"Okay, I'll try. For the baby," I said.