Reasons why..I love you

I love you

The day we met was September 16th is was a Wednesday morning, i'd first started siting at the breakfast table, haha i was the weird quiet person there i don't really talk so i just kinda kept my eyes down to the ground and stared at everyone's shoes until we had to go. hahah. I'm weird i know. but a few days later i was in study hall and you had to go to a class i wanted to say Hi but you know anxiety so i didn't and kept my mouth shut and continued to work on my story. (BTW i never finished it i kinda lost it that weekend haha) But the next Monday i found out you were in my lunch and i couldn't help myself but to keep looking at you..i was just hooked on looking at you. And i had no idea why my heart kept beating so fast when you started talking to me. I had realized i never knew your name but you still were able t take my breathe away with your smile and laugh, and like an idiot i am i kinda just asked really awkwardly what your name was and i found out it was Anthony. I invited you to come sit at the table with my friend and you did..I really honestly didn't expect that either.

Later that day i went home wheezing out of my own stupidity telling my friends i had actually made a real life friend for once by myself! they had asked what you looked like and i described you as "Handsome, adorable and just amazing" haha they told me that i needed to be more specific and to slow my talking down. you have no idea how badly my heart was racing that day! You had no idea how badly you rocked my world, its crazy what little things you did before we started talking on Facebook meant to me. Like actually talking to me most people basically treated me like the dirt on their shoe. And i don't think you understood how badly i wanted you to be there 24/7 just so i was comfortable with someone to talk to and almost be myself. I say almost because in the beginning i didn't want to scare you away. Turns out you were just as weird as me and that's what made me like you. I would talk about you a lot to Lauryn and she told me to ask you out but i said it was too soon as we'd only been talking for a week and a half. My cabin 15 friends even said that we should be dating by then with the time you and i had started talking which was at school, when i was done with homework, and when i got home from school.

Luke told me to make sure that you were a good guy and i knew you were, but he wanted to make sure you were because we'll I've been really hurt by guys before. whether it was that they lied to me, Left me for someone else, cheated on me, didn't like me the way that thought they did in the beginning or just all of them.. I'd been told to kill myself from an ex who had abused me and Luke wanted to make sure i was safe. And i was right. I was safe with you and i was right to trust you with everything. Because now i have someone who loves me and knows my past and understands it.

But anyways on with the story i added you on Facebook and you have no idea how badly i started wheezing on how quickly you responded on the request. haha again i'm weird! i freaked out ask Lauryn i was squealing and hyper and happy. i finally had found someone i liked talking to and i could trust with all my secrets.

About a week after this the strike happened and we would skype just about everyday that my mom would come in the door and say hi to you like shes done it all her life. And it felt like i knew you all my life too. during the two weeks before you and i had started dating , we would flirt a lot with each other and i'm really bad at flirting so hahah sorry for my awkward conversations but that one night before we started dating you asked me if i wanted to be treated like a princess or a queen, But i wasn't sure which one to pick so i asked you what you wanted to be to me my prince or my king and i would be your queen if you were a king or a your princess if you choose prince as well. And you choose to be my prince and i choose to be your princess. Than October one of the best days of my life happened! You and i were talking haha and i was confused on if we were dating or not because it seemed like we really were but again i'm not all that bright. So i asked you and you asked me if i wanted to. and you have no idea how much my heart begin to race and how happy i was. It felt like i had just gotten everything i'd ever wanted..and i did.

You are everything i ever wanted.

I love you so very much you're so amazing in every single way. I love you Anthony Issaac White,you're the most amazing man alive and i will always need you in my life forever