you walks into your house again
hearing poeple talking and laughing
but this time is different
you want this to be your last time walking in the house
you smiles at your mom and dad
your 9yr sister and 5yr brother
you walks into your room and close the door
you drop everything you has
and drop to your knees
you cant stop crying at this point
you make your way to his desk
pull out five items
One.. a pen to write the words you could never speak
Two.. a paper so your unspoken words can be heard
Three.. an envelop for holding your unspoken words from the world
four.. a ribbon to make it look better
five.. your blade to leave behind only your unspoken words
at the age of 16 you don't want to move on anymore
you call all of your friends and says goodbye to them
they all think your ok
so they joke and say "ok, see you tomorrow"
if only they know right?
you sit there for awhile
looking at the paper through your glass eyes
the only thing you could write down was two little words
"I'm sorry"
you folds the paper ever so neat and puts it into the envelope and put a bow on top of it
you stands up and walk over to your closet
you pick out your best cloths and put them on
you make two slits down your arm
you just watch as the blood flows out
just like you're watching your life fade
your little brother walks in
your brother wanted to be just like you when he gets older...
he runs over to you and trys waking you up
it doesn't work..
wait a minute
lets go back
to when you were making calls to your friends
what if one of them stopped you
your friend picks the phone up and
"goodbye" you mutter
not today they shot back
you guys talk endlessly
until your sitting there crying
your little brother comes running into the room to get you
he walks right up to you and just starts hugging you
he wont let go..
but he does keep saying "it's ok"
over and over
you put the phone down and just hug him back
your sister walks into the room this time..
she comes running over to you and starts hugging you also
you cant stop crying now...
your little sister looks up at you begging you not to go..
how did she even know your thinking does it matter...?
please,
remember before you do something stuff people care for you
and ending your life is not a good thing
it effects everyone in a dead way not a good way..
please,
don't write that note
drop that pill, blade, knife, gun, rope, whatever your weapon of choice is..
do it for yourself..
if you cant do it for yourself then do it for everyone you know..
please..their is always another option
you just need to look for it..
