Forever

Never love again

  This is the story of my first love, my first kiss, my first heart break, and my first for everything. Hi, my name is Dani McGuire. A couple years ago my life changed for the best and for the worst. I was severely depressed before then and nobody even had a clue. I cried myself to sleep and in the morning I would put on my fake smile then repeat. There wasn't a day gone by that I didn't wonder whether or not I should kill myself or everyone around me. I isolated myself and pushed anyone away that ever tried to get close to me. I didn't know what love felt like and I didn't want to. I was broken and I knew nobody could fix my pieces. Towards the end of my eighth grade year, we had a dance. It was a big deal for me because it meant I was blossoming into a woman and also because I had a date. The boy I had liked for almost a year asked me out two days before the dance and I said yes.

I was so excited, I couldn't wait to see him at school the next day. When I arrived he didn't even try to speak to me, he wouldn't even text me. Was he so ashamed to be dating the 'ugly girl' that he didn't even want to acknowledge my existence? Was he just desperate for a date to the dance? So many questions had been running through my head all day and I was so scared. And the next day, still no words spoken from him. I got home from school and three hours later my best friend, who was also his best friend, texted me and told me he wanted to break up because I was 'gross'. A day before the dance and I was dumped already. I was so ashamed that I told my own mother that my dates aunt died and he had to go to Ohio for her funeral. I had so many emotions running through me. I felt ugly, gross, and worthless. I cried myself to sleep that night and the next day during school.