Ella's POV**i yawn , hayyyy nako!! nakaka pagod naman....
but i need to get up and get dressed! kasi its sunday ..mag-sisimba din daw tayo ehh noh?
after nun , nag bihis ako ng plain white ko na dress and my oh-so-i-hate heels ko..
ewan ko ba ? kung bakit ko sinuot to.pababa na ako ng hagdan ng makita ko na sina dad .. they were dressed .. sila ang makaka sama ko for today ..
maybe,its the time na ill make things up with my mom diba ? its like . im just making things complicated ..its not her choice , hindi niya din kasalanan ang nanyari.. its just im so stubborn .. ya know? hehe ..
"Hey , are you prepared princess ?"
dad asked ..
"ahh , yeah .. shall we , dad ? mom ?"
i looked them ..
mom can cry anytime by now , swear ..
"nah , i dont like drama's .. come on! were gonna be late.."
i said , i may sound rude , but .. I.DONT.LIKE.DRAMA'S ..
then , umalis na kami .. i hook may hand to mom and dad .. so , nasa gitna ako ..
i really wished this day.."God forgives the thief , he can forgive the man who killed man .. he forgive everyone of us , but why ? bakit ? bakit ang hirap para sa atin mag patawad ? its just that pride .. pride that everyone of us have , you know ? pride is the most dangerous enemy of a person.."
the priest said ..
yes ,Pride .. yan lang naman ako ehh ,diyan ako magaling .. pride swollowed me , until it reach to the point na hindi ko na kayang kumawala ..
Forgiveness ,Yan naman ang wala ako.. hini ako magaling diyan , my heart was stock ..stock by anger , bitterness .. all this time i was in that place .. na pati yung mga taong alam kong andyan lang para sa akin , na kahit kailan ,hinding-hindi ako iiwan ..
That was my Family .. pero ano ginawa ko ? inilayo ko ang loob ko sa kanila . when i need a mom.. i need her , pero pride kills me , telling me na dont , 'shes the reason'
but , no ..she's not .. she may be not may elegable mother but she act like one .. ako lang ang sira ulo..Hayy ,bakit ngayon pa ako nakpag move on?
I kneel down and crossed my arms ..
"Mom ? alam ko nakikinig ka . Im here , im already Sixteen years old .. im a teenager ..
naalala ko noon .. i was always , praying na sana , maging dalaga na ako , so that i can wear lipstics .." i chuckle .."You said that time was 'your so exited my princess , why ? do want to leave me that fast ?' my voice was cracking , i bit my lower lips for me to stop the hot liquid stream down my face.
"But mom , you leaved me ..you leaved me that fast .. why mom ? you dont want me to be with you ?" i sigh then put a smile on my lips.. "But mom ,dont worry , i have my new mom , she's nice .. she never treated me like what we seen in fairytales before .. she never said that she doesnt love me , she never let me clean the house , clean the staircase with a pale of water .. she doesnt mom .. i dont want her before .. but i realize how much he loves dad and me .. i know your happy for me mom .. i know you are .."tumayo ako at pinunasan ang luha ko..
after going to church , i decided to go here , kay mama ..
sina daddy was on my back ..
dad gave her a flower , not just a flower but her favorite one .. Sunflowers ...
she likes it cause it shines like her ..i just hug dad very tight ..
then hug mom very tight ..
"im sorry .."
i said ..
"you dont have to .."
she's just so nice ..
kumawala na ako sa pag yakap sa kanya and i smiled.
"im hungry , pede kumain ?"
babasagin ko lang ang kadramahan na ito!
they both laugh ..
"Sure , such a hungry princess."
naalala ko tuloy yung accusive monster na yun!
i just smiled ..
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"Say Cheese!"
click!
nag groufie kami nina momand dad..
nandito kami ngayon sa isang restaurant. ganda nga dito ehh , ang ganda ng ambiance ng restaurant ..
nakaka gaan ng pakiramdam .."Hija ? sorry sa tatanungin ko ha ? pero , im just bit curious kasi ehh.."
kinain ko naman muna yung steak na hiniwa ko..
"go on mom .."
i said ..
Yum-Yum! ang SARAP naman neto!
"You always got home late .. im a bit nervous darling ..."
she smiled ,and i gave her also my smile.
"sorry mom if i make you nervous .. Im just in school , doing stuffs .."
she nodded .
"Ok princess , just keep safe ok ?"
dad says ..
napangiti naman ako.. i just saw what's real
"yup dad! dont worry ,nothing will happen."
sabi ko ng may seguridad sa boses ko..
then so on ..
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pagkatapos ng mga pangyayari kanina , heto ako ngayon , nakahilata .. WAAAAA! ang boring ng sunday ko ngayon!!
in-open ko ang loptop ko at nag open ng facebook..
matagal tagal din ako bago naka open ng Fb ko ..122 friend request , 1,178 message , 300 notification .
oh? diba ? ang stig ng FACEBOOK ko!
di man kasi ako mahilig mag accept and read those mess and notifs ..Bling!!
nag pop ang pangalan ni Almayra sa Messages ko .
"Hey! been updated huh? but me? nah! i dont think! you stupid brat! bakit di mo sinabi sa akin!!"
Woah?! parang pag nasaharap ko ito ngayon siguro na lagasan na ang kagandahan ko ..
"ano naman ba yan ha?! almayrah! wag mo ako inaano ha!"
oh diba ? ang pride namin , abot sa mactan bridge ..
"Go to this blog .."
sinend niya sa akin yung blog at inopen ko naman ...
but , THAT WAS THE MOST WRONG I DID IN MY WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE!
THIS IS IS'NT HAPPENING!
Prepare for this you ACCUSIVE BITCH MONSTER!!!!!!!!