the only escape for me is phil. i'm now 23, he being 26. he always calms my anger and –homophobes beware– we've been dating for 2 years. sometimes i wonder how such a sweet, innocent "lion" can deal with me. he loves when i hold him close and play with his hair, which i think is the only way i know how to soften. he always makes me feel so sweet and maybe one day i can be just like him. though philly is innocent, he has a dark, dark side. it was only a few days after our 2 year anniversary that he finally said the words i've been waiting for since grade three..
"dan.. i-i think it's time i go killing with you.. just once."
