She Waits In My Dreams

Nightmares arent afraid

That night after I almost killed Kelen, that was when the nightmares started. I almost killed her the same night she was born. I should've just kept squeezing, but I didn't. I can't change what I didn't do. But I can regret it, and I do now. For a second back there I lost what I was doing, that's all.

In my room I can think better, but even now I still don't actually understand why I didn't kill Kelen.

~time travel~
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I'm 17 now and Kelen is four and she doesn't scream as much outside of my head, but I can hear them louder than ever inside. I can still hear them though. And that's enough for me to still hate her, even though for some reason she's taken a liking to me.

Some nights I'll wake up out of a nightmare and find her standing in my doorway. I don't know what she does or why she stands in my doorway or even how many nights she comes in my room. But tonight after I woke up from a nightmare there she was, ten feet in front of me, standing in my doorway. She was just staring at me and I didn't know if she could see me looking at her or not so I gently closed my eyelids to give her a false sense of me sleeping. She didn't move, didn't twitch, just stood there looking at me, not thoughtfully, not angrily, nothing. Just pure untouched staring.

It was nerve racking. Why didn't she hate me back? I tried to kill her for gods sake! She might not know that I tried to kill her, but I still look at her with hatred and yell at her sometimes. I decided tonight was the night I would confront her about it. I opened my eyes back up and looked at her, she still had that look of nothing plastered on her face. I finally sat up and looked at her with a confused expression.

" Kelen, why are you just standing in my doorway?"

I knew she could talk and fully understand the words I was saying, but she chose not to answer my question. I looked at her expectantly then sighed an agitated sigh after I realized she wasn't going to answer me. I laid back down and closed my eyes, maybe I won't confront her. I drifted off and just as I was about to welcome sleep I heard a shrill soft voice.

" c-can I sleep with you, Jason?"

I opened my eyes again, those words rung through my brain. It shocked me, what was I suppose to do? I hate her and she should hate me back, why would she want to sleep with me?

" why? Can't you just sleep with mom?"

My words came out cold and I even shuddered, but she stood there not moving and frowned.

" N-no! I-I wanna sleep with you!" She yelled angrily

She yelled at me. She actually yelled at me. I was stunned, and what stunned me more where the next words that came out of my mouth.

" sure, just be quite and don't yell at me again."

Why did I say that!? I don't understand, did I feel pity? Did I feel bad for her? Or even worse did I -no I couldn't, did I actually love Kellen? She didn't say anything, all she did was walk over and climb in under my covers. There was a silence and I felt awkward. I just kept looking over at her sleeping silhouette. I finally got up the nerve to ask.

" why did you want to sleep with me?"

She twitched and paused for a moment before answering.

" I don't know...because I have scary dreams. And I never sleep with you." 

Scary dreams? What did she mean scary dreams? I looked over at her and seen that she was already sleeping so I couldn't ask her. I turned back away from her and stared at the wall wondering why the heck my little sister I hated so much was sleeping in my bed. Why did I even care about her dreams and whether they were scary or not? Why did I get the feeling like she knew I tried to kill her?

I was just confused about everything. Everything about Kelen. My little sister. The sister that I hated.

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~Quick Authors Note~

Hey readers! I know I don't really add these authors notes a lot, like at all. But I just wanted to see what you guys think of the story. Do you like Kelen? Do you like Jason? Is their relationship okay?  Do you think I should continue on this book? Please give me your advise down in the comments ;). Thanks for reading and have a good day.