The hazard of being me ✔

Boyfriend Romance's and my accident

You'd think Because of my kind nature.. I would be able to keep a boyfriend right?

WRONG!

I may as well become a spinster! It's not getting the guys that is the problem. It's keeping them. See I'm a virgin and my Issue is sex but guys need that right?

But that's the thing we live in a sex mad pressurized world. Ive had around 4 Exes in about 2 Years.

My First boyfriend I met at college and at first he was'nt keen on me but then we moved from friendship and got together. But eventually he started talking about sex and when I explaained how nervous I was and how I wasn't ready for that kind of commitment because I beleive it should  be when you've got a permanent relationship.

So then he started talking about how he has a bent copper helping him with drugs and getting out of jail and stuff like that. Looking back I think he was sprouting out that stuff to get me to dump him.
I did actually think about dumping him but I actually lost my bottle.
Eventually though he wrote a Facebook status saying "I'm so happy to be single." Ever since then I've had dirty looks in town off his mother. I literally ran out of the shop once thinking she would beat me up or something.

My second boyfriend I met on a dating site. He was lovely but you know the same thing happened. We started Oral sex. Which is a bit further than I've ever got before which for me was an achievement.. But I was still nervous about the prospect of sex.
Anyway eventually he called me at a phone box (my phone wasn't working) and I thought he had said he needed space. I understood that. But instead it took him 3 attempts and our friend from America to dump me. He must've forgotten I was deaf or something. This lasted around 4 months.

My third boyfriend I met on the same dating site. As usual things went well I got on with his family. And one night he invited me back to his.. But I think at some point he changed his mind. I slept in his bed and he slept downstairs. I wanted to be a normal couple and cuddle in bed and stuff. Why can't guys understand I'm not ready and willing to wait?.
Then after he dumped me I found out he has a kid with someone else. He did tell me he had a test in his room but I thought he was talking about an sti test to put my mind at rest.

My fourth boyfriend I met at college again. Things were going well and in this case there's no mention of sex but instead he dumped me for his best friend and then his best friend cheated on him.
His best friend then turned to bully me with her new boyfriend online (another guy).
So you could say there was Karma there..
This lasted around 2 months.
So the question I'm asking is it me or is it the guys?.