" I honestly feel like giving up everyday. Like it isn't easy to forget about everything and carry on. I haven't told any of my parents this or any of my friends but one of my friends almost found out that I cut cause she looked at my wrist and saw this huge cut on it. I lied and told her that the neighbors cat did it. and every time I try to open up to someone on how I feel in person,it's like my mind ran out of words to say and I'm just standing there speechless and pathetic looking and I don't know what to do.People don't bully me at school,cause i try my best to go by unnoticed which isn't very difficult at my school. my teachers are all quite nice and I have amazing friends but I feel empty. like there is this gigantic hole in my chest that's never going to be filled. and if someone asks me if I'm happy or if I'm doing good I say yes infront of everyone I'm happy and it's like I couldn't be any happier but when it's two in the morning I can't sleep, I'm just alone. and I've been so sad and tired lately and I tell everyone to be happy and smile and that they are Beautiful but I can't seem to say that to myself. I tell everyone that I love them and they deserve to be here but I'm sitting a home crying my eyes out. I try to make everyone laugh and smile but I'm so sad my self and it's weird,"
-anon
