Walk Away

Chapter One:

Walk Away

Chapter One: Karmin's Pov.

The sharp blade slid across my now exposed wrist. I could see my reflection through it. I watched as the blood seeped out and poured to the floor. The pain I went through, no one knew how hard it was. I covered my life up, my bruises, and my cuts. I slit another line on my wrist. This time deeper. The pain taking over my body but suddenly I felt a sense of relief. I felt better in a way. I had to have that feeling again. That feeling of hope, of betterness. I cut a third line, this one twice as deep as before. The blood soaked to the floor, it was almost unbearable. I bit down on my shirt as I cut again. Soon I felt light headed. Dizziness took over. My breathes shortened as my heart beat slowed. I felt my body slipping away. But I couldn't go. Not this way. I used all the energy I had with in me and stood up. Blood covered my clothes along with the floor. I rinsed my cuts under the water. After a while the blood was gone. I placed a bandage over each, I put my bracelets back on where they once were.

I tried to clean up the blood. It was stained to my shirt. Red over taking the white. I quickly pulled it off and shoved it deep in the hamper along with the rest of the clothes I was wearing. I tossed the basket aside, turning on the water I waited for it to warm up. As I did I glanced in the mirror. I was never one to look at myself to much because I wasn't satisfied with what I saw. But something drew me to look this time. My body. Covered in purple splotches. Some were black and blue. More a deep red and a few so bruised they were yellow. I shut my eyes. Not baring to look any further. I couldn't.

Once the water was heated, I stepped in. The hot water danced along my skin. I closed my eyes as I let the water hit my body. I tried to relax but I couldn't help but think back to last night. The thought of him made goosebumps spread across my skin. I shook at the thought of him. The memories played in my head over and over until I opened my eyes. They opened slowly but quickly closed again. My knees went weak. The steam from the water made it hard to breath. My body collapsed, I fell to the bottom of the tub. I couldn't move. Black was the only thing I saw. Minutes went by before I could regain any energy to stand up. The water boiling on my skin. I couldn't turn it off. I couldn't gain the strength. I began to panic. The water causing it hard to breathe, the hot making it hard to have even the slightest bit of energy. My vision went black once more.

I woke up to cold water splashing on my face. My body shaking from its harsh yet cool touch. My entire body ached as I lifted myself up to turn the water off. I climbed out of the tub. After I dressed my body to where the bruises weren't visible, I checked the time. 4:22 pm. He'd be home any minute. I had to get the house cleaned before he returned. I ran to the bathroom picking up the basket of clothes, I couldn't let him see the blood. I rushed around the room picking up every dirty piece of cloth that I saw. I made my way to the washer. 4:30, time was ticking. As I set them to wash I dashed to the kitchen to do the dishes. I scrubbed each dish as much as possible. I cleaned up the glass off the floor that had been there since last night, trying to forget the memory that clouded my mind. After I picked up the living room, cleaned up our bedroom, and fixed the bathroom up, I was finished. Just in time too.

"This doesn't look clean enough to me." "I worked my ass of Liam." "I-I-I don't fuuuuckkingg care. This isn't clean." His words slurred. I could tell he had a few drinks. Maybe more. "You know what I have to do don't you, Karmin?" I snapped my eyes shut and cringed at the thought of what he'd do to me.