Hit by the truth

Thoughts

I sit on the cold wet cement as I watch my friends gossiping about something and giggling amongst themselves. They haven't yet noticed my absence but I'm not surprised, usually they don't even care. Apparently, they don't notice me, watching them in silence freezing my butt off. I would had worn snow pants but apparently yesterday's fad had been lost. I try to hold myself up so that less of me is touching the cement and hover over the stair that I was sitting on. Longer and longer it seems the days have been taking. I'm not doing very well in school. Most of the time I'm usually really good at school it's just that my friend Rachel told me that C- was the next big thing. Weirdly though, Rachel and all my other friends seem to be getting As and Bs in most classes, probably because  they just don't know how to get the perfect grades, and they're not as good as me. That's how I know that I have really good friends who shower me with compliments and only slip up on me few times. I always forgive them of course.
"Thalia?" Natalie laughed, "no, no she's not! It's just great to have a disposable one. She's our... Dummy, y'know?"
She was talking to one of the really popular girls. I think her name was Madison but I couldn't be sure. I don't pay attention to that kind of stuff.
"Ooh!" Squealed Lily, "did you hear our new joke?" She was practically jumping up and down with excitement. I leaned in closer to hear, it was going to be good!
"So, we made up a kind of fake fad, it was like, C-is the new thing!" Lily was giggling. That's when it hit me. They'd lied about the "new fad" and everything else too! I wasn't great at everything and they were just trying to get me to summer school so I wasn't tagging along at everything! Tears stung my eyes as I gave up and dropped myself on to the cold cement step. Hit by the truth.