Letters To Shawn S.M.

15

Life is worth living.
So live another day

Dear Shawn,
It may sound crazy what I'm about to say. But I blame myself for what is happening between you and me. Maybe I should have tried harder. Maybe I should've just given you your space. Maybe I shouldn't have gone to the concert at all. Maybe I should have never written you any letters. Or texted you. Or called you. I have finally accepted that you are perfectly capable of living without me.

Goodbye Shawn.

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SKYLAR POV
I went outside to put the last letter for Shawn in the mailbox.
While I was walking down the driveway to the mailbox, a big bus parked infront of the mailbox. I stared at it for a minute, but then all of the sudden, Shawn gets out of it.
As soon as he saw me, he ran to me and hugged me. I was just standing there. I didn't hug back. I just stood there with my arms down, trying to comprehend what was going on.

When he let go. He took a step back and noticed the letter that was still in my hand He ripped it slowly from my hold, opened it, and began to read it.
As soon as he finished reading it, he held me again, but this time it was different, this time I let him.

"No no no Sky, please don't ever think this was any of your fault. It was mine." He said with his voice wrapped with concern.
When he said this, I began crying against his body, that was still safely wrapped around mine. When he noticed the quiet sobs that escaped my lips, he hugged even tighter.
"Sky I love you and I need you in my world for it to function properly."
Then it was my turn to speak, "I just thought maybe I was putting to much pressure on you. "
He shook his head and spoke again, "Sky I'm here now, that's all that matters." "But you won't be here for long Shawn. And then we start this all over again."

"Let's do this okay? Let's not worry about that right now okay? Let's focus on us." He said aligning his forehead with mine.
I nodded slowly for a response.
I slowly led him into my house a s told him to sit down in the living room.
We where just sitting there until I decided to break the ice.

"So uhmm.. how was tour?"
"It was amazing, I have the best fans in the world!" He said looking like a proud father. It made me to happy to see him this proud, but it killed me to know that things where never going to be the same.

"So ugh have you talked to Austin lately?" He brought up cautiously. I looked down and shook my head no.

"Oh I'm really sorry about what happened with him and Abby."
I gave him a cheap smile in return. "Yeah I just wish I would've seen it coming."

After a few more minutes of silence, I began again, " So what do we do now Shawn?"

"We start over"