Black & White

September 2009

September 2009

1st September 2009

It's raining, again. I have two more days before I return to St Elizabeth's school for girls. Today I purchased a new rucksack from town as I went in with Freya. It's navy and looks like the night sky with stars. Freya has new glasses and is super excited to start year 11. I am too. My brother Sam starts sixth form tomorrow. Oliver has three weeks before he heads off to Birmingham university. Me and Tom go back in two days he starts year 13 though. I hate having three older brothers.

2nd September 2009

One less brother in the house. Sam and his friend Dan have just walked to sixth form. I watched priceless with Oliver as Tom had a girl round and they spent the entire time in his room. Me and Oliver then walked to the shop to get dinner as mum said she's not coming home till late and dads in Hong Kong on a business trip. Sam came home and cooked dinner as he noticed I was attempting it which means the house will be burnt down. We had a sibling film night.

3rd September 2009

Back in a classroom listening to Mrs Way rambling on about utter rubbish and goals for this year. Freya and Lily are in some of my lessons but I am alone in maths as I am top set and psychology. Psychology was actually really fun. I am taking triple science, psychology, history, Geography and sociology. Sam is complaining about the AS-level biology course for some reason but has seen some girl he thinks is buff. Mum came home in a bad mood having been bitten by a toddler.

4th September 2009

Woke up to dad coming in from a 3 am flight back from Hong Kong. Couldn't get back to sleep so I went to have a shower without the usual fight. Dad seemed to have had a great time selling toothpaste. Must be a thrilling job. Oliver walked with me to school today as Freya is sick and he was walking into work, he works in Starbucks . We had a test in chemistry based on what we already knew. I was thinking what is must be like to be popular. I mean I would never smoke, drink excessively or do drugs like the popular girls but I would love to be as pretty as them. I am not interested in boys yet. But I would love to not be a social reject.

5th September 2009

Friday! Had netball after school and Mrs Cook said I can do GCSE PE after school which is really cool because I will then have 12 GCSES which technically makes me clever apparently! Amelia (one of the populars) is having a party and has asked the whole year except me, Freya and lily. We not that bothered though we don't want to drink. Oliver has gone out clubbing and Tom is round his girlfriend Isobel's so it's only me and Sam home. We played COD till mum and dad came home at 11.

6th September 2009

Usual Saturday morning. Oliver hungover, Sam asleep, Dad visiting family and mum at work. Unusually, Tom hasn't been chucked out of Isobel's by her dad. I made toast and did my chemistry homework which was pretty easy actually. Sam woke up at 12 and joined me in sitting round a table doing some panting with cousin Ella who had been dropped off earlier. Painting with a six year old is messy. She's gone now and Tom is happy because he got to have sex with Isobel. Him and Sam are putting in dirty comments because they have established I am flying my red flag. Oliver is being super nice.

7th September 2009

Me, Sam and Oliver are in Toms room. Tom's at work but Mum and Dad are having a huge row downstairs. We thought we would play cards to pass the time. It went quiet downstairs and mum walked upstairs and we knew something was wrong when she summoned us downstairs and Tom was called from work. Mum and Dad are getting a divorce. Dad is moving away to East London and said the boys were going with dad and I was staying with her. I really don't want to leave my brothers.

8th September 2009

It's 1am and I haven't slept. Went to Oliver's room but he wasn't there. Tom wasn't in his room either so I tried Sam's room and found them all sat on the bed. I told them I didn't want to leave them and they didn't want me to leave them either. We decided we would tackle mum in the morning, we weren't being split that was final. We spoke to mum at breakfast and she wasn't amused by our keenness to stay together. She said we had no choice. I was staying, they were going. School was rubbish I wasn't in the mood.

9th September 2009

Oliver, Sam, Tom and Dad had began packing when I got home. It seems the divorce has been in the balance a long time as dad already has a house in London and a job for the same toothpaste company but at a different branch. I sat watching Sam pack. Dad came in and sat with me. I had a week left with my brothers and Dad and I did not want to stay with mum. I had nothing against her just it would be very lonely. I asked dad why I couldn't go with him and he said it was because they didn't have room.

10th September 2009

Sam was outside my school with Tom. Sam was eyeing up all the girls coming out, smiling at a few. They picked me up from school because they had a idea, they could share a room so I could have a room in the London house with dad. We suggested it to mum, she told me to stop being stupid. I give up I am staying with her whatever I say by the sound of things.