Well, here I am. Laying in bed at home while my best friend, Max. Is basically dying in the hospital, slowly and painfully. I hope he doesn't have to suffer any longer. I just want him to get out of there right now so he can come home and give me a big hug. I know me and him are over, but I still want him back. I'm glad to be best friends, but I want him to be my boyfriend again. Who knows, maybe Scott will come back to me? No. Me and him are barley talking anymore. I'm kinda sad. I miss him a lot. I like him and Max. But maybe Max is better off just a friend? I don't know. But I wouldn't be able to handle Scott just a friend. I need him to be more. I really miss him. I miss him so much. I can't even stand it. I am now 5 months pregnant. My friend liberty had her baby not to long ago. Max has been in the hospital for about 2 months. I struggled after Liberty got pregnant. Everyone struggled after the school fire. I miss my friends at school a lot. School is basically over for the summer. Its been a LONG summer. When I was about 3 maybe 4 months pregnant, summer started and I missed out on the end of school. So I just forget about school, because where I live, summer is very long. Well, I hope this all gets better.
I visit Max every 3 days. It gets harder not seeing him everyday. I don't know how I stay home. Today I visit my max again. Anyways, I should go head out to see him.(:
***At the hospital***
"Hey, Max." I said.
"Hey, Jessica." He said.
"I missed you. " I said.
"Can I tell you something?" He asked.
"Sure, anything." I said.
"Your the one that I hold on to, because my heart will stop without........you." He said.
"That's really sweet, Max. I'll be here until the end. I'm not leaving you for good. Maybe I go home, but I miss you. That's why I come back." I said.
Then, we talked a little.
"Well, I should be heading out. Bye,Max." I said.
"Wait...."He said.
I turned around towards him and looked at him. I was suprised.
"The doctors told me something..." He said.
"What is it?" I asked. I was scared now.
"Jessica."He said.
He gripped onto my hand. He was looking me in the eyes. He had little tears now.
"What is it, Max!?" I asked very panicked.
"I only have 2 weeks to live. I die in 2 weeks." He said.
"What...." I was tearing up. I didn't want him to see me like this anymore.
"Bye, Max. I love you." I said sadly.
I walked out. I decided that I would visit him everyday now.
