Trigger warning in this chapter
Connor's pov
After dinner we all return to our rooms. Tyler pushes open the door and walks inside holding it open for me.
"Are you okay Con? You seem off." Tyler say sorting his toiletries to prepare for bed.
"Yeah. I'm just nervous. I have never been away from home for a long time before, so this is a really new experience for me." I say, half telling the truth and half lying. I pick up my phone and unlock it, typing in my passcode, 7724. I open my messages and see one from my mother
Hi sweetie. Just wanted to make sure that you are settled in. If you need anything just message your father or I. Love and miss you xxx ~ Mom
I chuckle at the message but decide that it is too late in the day to send a reply. Instead I change out of my travelling clothes and into my pjs.
I hear Tyler come out of the bathroom cursing under his breath.
"Fucking Mellet. I'm gonna kill the son of a bitch." He says throwing himself on to his bed, face first.
My eyes immediately look at his hair. The once pale blue strands are now a dark blue but the tips are still light.
"Looks good on you Ty." I say as I shut the door leading from our room to the bathroom. I lift my shirt and I look at myself in the mirror. All of my bones stick out at awkward angles like the branches of a tree, unpredictable and random. My pale skin hangs tightly to them. I instantly regret eating the full meal. The voices in my head start screaming.
You're fat!
You're ugly!
Why are you still alive!
You ate too much you pig!
I lean over the toilet and all of the meal I just ate is ejected from my body. I sit there limply, hoping and praying that Tyler isn't awake. I rinse my mouth out with water and then brush my teeth. I walk out of the bathroom and fall on to my bed.
"Night Tyler." I say before falling into my usual restless sleep.
I keep running in and out of the different rocks. I can feel the sweat dripping down my head and my heart racing in my chest. I look up to the sky but all I can see is grey. I turn around another corner and see the monster. It's giant and spider like. I run as fast as my legs will carry me to the exit of this never ending hell. I can hear someone yelling my name. Not one person. Several people. I look to the exit and see all of my new friends standing urging me to run faster. The doors start shutting and even though my legs are aching, I run faster. I slide through the tiny gap in the rocks and fall into the soft grass.
"Connor wake up." Tyler's voice says. I can feel myself being shaken but I can't move. Until suddenly, I'm not in that world anymore.
My eyes snap open and I see Tyler's concerned face staring down at me.
"You okay buddy? You were shouting and panting." He says helping me sit up.
"Just a nightmare. But I never get different nightmares, it's always the same one. Like I'm trapped but today, I escaped. You were in it and everyone I met today. It's weird because it was like I was running towards you not away from you." I say yawning. I look at Tyler's alarm clock. 3:20a.m.
"I'm gonna take a shower. It's too late for me to get back to sleep. I'll try an be as quiet as I can." I say climbing out of bed and placing my feet on the hard wood floor.
"I'm gonna get up and sort my bag and then I'll shower after you. I won't be able to go back to sleep either." He says picking a bag up from underneath his bed.
I walk into the bathroom and turn on the shower. I strip and climb under the hot water. It runs down my body and warms me.
I wash my hair and body and then dry myself off. I suddenly remember that I forgot to bring clothes into the bathroom with me and instantly regret doing that.
"Umm Tyler?" I say through the closed door. "I forgot to bring clothes in here with me so just erm keep your eyes shut okay?" He mumbles what sounds like a yes and I leave the bathroom. I quickly run to my closet and grab a random outfit. Lucky for me I planned them all. I run back into the bathroom, lock the door and change into the clothes.
I look in the mirror at my choice. A black button down with a pair of blue jeans and a black cardigan. I decide not to bother with my hair yet and leave the bathroom.
"40 minutes." Tyler says as soon as I leave. "It took you a whole 40 minutes to get ready. Well be prepared to wait, it takes me about an hour to an hour and a half to get ready." He picks up his stuff and walks into the bathroom.
I pick up my phone and start to scroll through my old pictures. There are so many of me and my siblings from family holidays and events. I smile at the memories of each one.
I pick up my bag for under my bed and start to put stuff into it. A notebook, folder, portable charger and a diary. I pick my headphones from my bedside table and plug them into my phone.
I lie in my back and put my headphones into my ears and relax into the music. The soft piano melody of the familiar piece relaxes my whole body making me feel as light as a feather. I close my eyes and lose myself in the piece, trying to memorise the tune to dance to later.
It may seem like a really stupid thin to some people but I dance. And no, no like street dance. I mean ballet. There is something about it that make me feel amazing. When I dance, I forget everything around me and I disappear mentally.
That's one of the reasons I chose this school, the dance program. I heard that not many people take it, but the ones that do are amazing dancers. While I was applying, my mom sent the dance instructor a recording of one of my dances from the previous year. And some how I got accepted.
"Connor? Are you awake?" I suddenly hear Tyler yelling. I open my eyes and allow them to adjust to the light.
"Yeah. Sorry I got distracted listening to something for one of the classes I am taking." I say, wrapping my headphones around my phone.
"Which class?" He asks.
"Umm. Okay promise not to judge me?" I ask and he nods. "Dance."
He smiles sweetly. "That's really cool! I'm in music and we always join classes with dance so I guess we'll see each other a lot!"
I smile fondly at him and my mind starts wondering. Am I really willing to show someone that I just met my dancing? I haven't even shown my parents so why the hell do I thin think this is gonna be a good idea!
But it's too late now. I promised myself that when I moved here, I was going to face my fears. The first I faced was the fear of being rejected by a group of people but that didn't happen. My second fear is judgement but I face that too. And my third and main fear. Showing someone my dance! But I am gonna do this and I won't chicken out.
"Earth to Connor? Which song are you gonna dance to?" Tyler laughs snapping his fingers in front of my face.
"I was think either Photograph by Ed Sheeran or Take Me To Church by Hozier." I say smiling internally at my choices.
"The music class and dance class always join together and guess who takes music?" He growls in a low voice.
"Troye?" I ask and he nods.
Awkward_Hand_Heart ending this part xxxx
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