Chasing the rain

It's like I can breath anymore! it's like I have no words, no explanation to why this is happening..

Getting out of this one is tough I was never going to do this alone it's hard. I would be saying "ya you know", but no one would understand, no one will ever understand me. I can't do this anymore, going In and out of depression, going to therapy is not what a normal human being can do but I'm not normal, no one is normal.

No one going to have a normal life. everyone has one bad thing ,one glitch that can change your life. It is what the world comes to,it's what your life comes to. It's who we are that makes our lives like this.

And this is my story.

Chap.1

It all started on the day my dad died my mom was depressed. It took a year and a half till she started to date again. She was kind of stubborn when it came to dating she barely trusted any guy,kind of like me. Not trusting, not trusting people who want to be close to you.

It's hard to not be as open but I rather be not open than openly open.

I live life,will try to live life in a small town in Wisconsin.

I never had a real real relationship before unless you count making people crying when were "dating" in my defense I counted them as "friends. I made one cry and skip school for a week he's name is nico.

Nico recently has girlfriend(s) and yet he still likes me that happened about two years ago.

Jett and me happened a very long time ago and I made him cry by a tree I felt bad for the tree, I'm sorry tree me and Jett are no longer verbal together. I go to nico's sometimes because my mom's friends with he's mom. So I go over there.

Then there are my two bestfriends and one guy friend I share a secret with. Perrie I'm closer to. Since fourth grade Melanie and I known each other since third grade. I'm more open to Perrie than Melanie.

Melanie isn't bad or anything it's just she tends to tell people my secrets to people who I'm no longer close to which is her friend or best friend.

I lied about not having a boyfriend does it count if he died? Weird question I know. Anyways he had cheated on me the day before and told me that we need to talk. So he threatened me to give him a second chance or he'll jump off a bridge which is crazy. I said maybe. Then we were really close to the bridge.

'Flash back'

I want to but I don't know if I can trust you, I mean I love you but you cheated on me...

Tears started to spill down my face. As my face came out shakily. I glance up at Dylan see tears brim around he's eyes.

Ava, I do love you I cheated on you because I thought you didn't like me anymore I saw you talking to that Nico guy and I got jealous so I thought lets just get drunk and kiss grace I'm so sorry I thought It was stupid.

It's all my fault. He kissed grace Melanie's sister. I'm so stupid I couldn't see him being jealously with annoying stalker Nico. I gazed up at him until my eyes locked with his. I felt true apologetic in he's eyes. Dylan I'm so sorry I should have paid attention to your feelings.

It's not your fault I should have trusted you Ava.

No no Dylan it's my fault all mine please don't jump I want you back please.

Ok I love Ava.

I love you dyl. Then he's hand stroked my cheek and he kissed me. Then felt something on my side break. The bridge railing broke which means were going to fall!