It was me and my boyfriend's anniversary on a Christmas day, where he kissed me and asked me to close my eyes till he brings my gift..i closed my eyes and opened, found a little box, he said, he loves me so much and he would never leave me, I smiled and opened the box, it had a golden thin ring he bought for me telling me when i wear it i only belong to him, i was so happy by that ring thoough it was a bit cheap but that's all the money he got from his 2 years salary, the salary he spent on my food and on his old aunt.. True he was poor and i was lonely with no family but he tried his best to make me the happiest girl in the world..but not with money but his pure love that he had it for me. I was living in my grandfather's house who left me alone since i was 14 and i am almost 17 now and he was living with his old aunt.
On that Christmas night, the sky started to snow ...I went back home with my boyfriend and a smile on my face not knowing what to do but all i wanted is to scream to the whole world that i am so happy, we reached to my home, and he hugged me so tight saying i love you...I don't know what happened.. but i fell asleep in his arms not waking up.
I opened my eyes, and it was all blurry... tried to rub my eyes with one hand to see properly, I smelled some thing weird, some medicine smell...Yeah I was in the hospital with my boyfriend next to my bed putting his head down with his eyes closed full of tears holding my hand tight though he was asleep. "Mikiya...? Mikiya...please wake up.." i said, he slowly opened his eyes and looked at me not believing that i woke up.. He suddenly got up and held both of my hands close to his warm face crying..saying " Oh my god..oh my...Sarah, you woke up finally !!" .."what am I doing here ?" I said..."You're just resting here my dear, nothing's wrong, you're just tired" he said looking deeply at my eyes.. i suddenly said "I need water..". He got up very fast running out of the room saying I will bring it for you.
The doctor came in not knowing whom to talk to about me... never found anyone else me to tell that I have an illness, no mother, no father and no family but just a boyfriend who would break down easily if he knows about my illness , so I preferred the doctor doesn't tell him anything but to me only.. Yeah, I have cancer.
My boyfriend entered the room holding water bottle in his hand...trying to make me drink it..but i no more wanted water, I was just so sad not because I'm gonna die sooner or later but because i never wanted to see my boyfriend tearing his eyes blood for my death. "Whats wrong Sarah?" He asked in a low, scared voice, I smiled and said "Nothing ... I'm no more thirsty i just need your love" He kissed my forehead saying my heart is yours only...!
The doctor never let me go back to my house any sooner, my boyfriend started to worry and think something's really wrong with my health since I was looking more sick each day.. he got up walking to the doctor with his fast steps reaching him and asking if there is something wrong with me, the doctor put his hands on his shoulders and said, "be strong my son", Mikiya yelled saying "Just tell me whats wrong with her!?" The doctor asked him to calm down and sit.
My boyfriend didn't come back to my room...but the doctor came saying.."I'm sorry, i couldn't not tell him, since he loves you this much he must know..!!" That was the saddest part of my life...knowing that my boyfriend knew about it now...just now. I kept waiting for him...looking at the door waiting it to open for my boyfriend...but he never came back at that time.
It was at night where I was all lonely, not knowing how to move from the bed and walk to search for my boyfriend, I started crying putting my hands on my eyes like a baby...hoping he comes as soon as possible...remembering the days I used to cry like that in my childhood and he was coming to my and taking my hands and wiping my tears with his warm hands. The door opened suddenly but I didn't want to look who it is because I would go more sad if it was not my boyfriend whom I'm waiting for since long, a cold hand suddenly touched my hand, saying in a low, sad, broken voice, stop crying baby, I'm here...I opened my eyes and it was my boyfriend...I saw his hands were all bloody and cut I asked him whats wrong with your hands, he said nothing it happened by mistake...he took my head and put it to his chest making me know that his heart beats only for me.
He everyday bought me roses and nice food and sweets to make me happy, I always asked him from where he got the money to get me all these, he said, he has got a new job and its giving him enough money, I felt happy for him... at nights he was sleeping sitting next to me holding my hands, it was at the middle of a night where I woke up suddenly realizing that the cuts he got is from his work ...he lied, he never got any new job, but the old job with working extra hours just to get extra money so he can make me more happy with it....
-To be continued
