Sangnamja

chapter 4

"Gosh, are you even listening? Are you in your rebellious years? Seriously? Why are you so stubborn about this?" suddenly hyung's head dropped on my shoulder, frustrated grunts left his mouth afterwards. He squeezed my arm for a few seconds before pulling away. Hyung have a frown on his face but he looked like a petulant kid robbed off of candies.
"You've always been a good kid, why aren't you listening to me nowadays?" He said, hands on his hips.
Kid and  baby brother are just some of the words I hate hearing him say. It just reminds me how impossible my dreams are. How he'll never love me like I love him. And he has a girlfriend which means he is straight. How shit is that?
I kept silent, staring at the floor while those thought run in circles. Suddenly I felt his hand heavy on my head and he begun to ruffle my hair
"Fine, you could join us. Maybe I could watch over you better if you hang with us. But you need to follow my every order from now on. And remember that we aren't brothers here so I need to be distant."
I frowned inevitably. The thought of having to treat hyung like a complete stranger feels really off to me.   I felt the urge to be close so I did, I hugged him tight. He didn't move at first but he slowly wrapped his arms around me as the seconds pass.
"Hyung, how come you never told me about your girlfriend?" I murmured loud enough so he could hear
He was quiet for a bit, I thought he wouldn't answer
"Well, I didn't think I need to" he simply said pulling away, but I held on tighter. Whatever he'll, say I don't want him looking at me. It's good that he didn't refuse. He just sighed and let his arms loosely encased me.
"Oh, sorry if it's not my business then" I tried to sound offended but it came out weak, almost a whisper
"I mean she's not the type I'll introduce to the family. I don't even... I'm not even in love with her." his tone was gentle and sincere. As if the words are only for me to ever hear
"Oh so you aren't in love?" I asked biting my lip, I even crossed my fingers. Luck please be by my side. Hyung, please say you aren't. Just a  little hope.
"I am, but not with her"
Tss, damn it. I pulled away but I tried to not make my haste noticeable. I dusted myself just to not meet his eyes.
"Oh I see. Okay. I think we need to go back" I immediately turned back and left the room.
The moment I shut the door behind me, I run. Because shit I need a place to let this out. My chest hurts so much. My heart is being squeezed. I even felt my eyes wet. Damn it. Shit

End of Kookie's P.O.V.

+Third person +

"So Kookie... you like leader?"
JungKook choked on his sandwich. He stared at TaeHyung, who was currently pillowing JiMin's lap. The red haired is unconsciously threading his fingers on lilac locks.
JungKook was told they are just best friends. JiMin is dating YoonGi since forever and TaeHyung has now progressed to mutual understanding with his long time crush, HoSeok. But still, when he sees them without their other halves they look so couple-y. He wonders when he'll be like that with Jin. But now the words told made his ears red and he stuttered
"Wh-what?"
"Dude you just made it more obvious" JiMin laughed, now taking TaeHyung's hand to play with. JungKook was really itching to ask about the excessive skinship but he tried to focus on the matter.
"I don't blame you" TaeHyung smirked at him. Reciprocating the hand sex the red haired engaged. JungKook gulped, frustrated on how observant he is at the moment.
He should have lied, he could have lied. But instead he looked down and murmured
"Please don't tell anyone"
TaeHyung bolted upright and tackled JiMin to flick his forehead, grinning. But then he yelped when the red haired retaliate  with a pinch on his side. JungKook watched them grinned at each other afterwards before speaking to him again
"We think you have a shot" JiMin said, smile now gentle and encouraging. JungKook appreciates the sentiment but preferred to stay in reality.
"I don't" he bitterly smiled, thinking of everything that adds up to that conclusion.
"Leader don't hug people back, not even his girlfriend" TaeHyung pointed out trying to cheer their new friend up. But it just confused the younger, even made him a bit nervous. How will they explain if somehow someone saw them hugging? Will Jin be mad at him for doing that?
"What? Hugged back?"
Just realizing that the youngest was clueless,TaeHyung and JiMin looked at each other and gulped simultaneously.

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"Fix this, Kim SeokJin!" YooRa, also known as Jin's girlfriend, stomped her way to the lone boy at the rooftop and shoved her phone to his chest.
"What's this?" He asked cooly even when his heart pounded at the picture that was on the screen. It was him and JungKook hugging in that vacant room. More than anything else, Jin was most worried on what will happen to JungKook once the picture and false rumors spread.
YooRa had her hands on her hips and brows raised as she started her predicament
"What's that? It's an issue and you should do something about it! Are you fucking that new kid? On his second day? Couldn't you have chosen a more secluded place? My image, gosh my image!" Knowing they were alone, she let her voice raise at every sentence as her anger grew inside. Jin just rolled his eyes at the seemingly childish outburst
"As if I care"
The comment just made the girl flare up
"I'm your girlfriend!"
This made Jin to make a stand and outright glare at his supposed girlfriend
"May I remind you how you became my girlfriend?"
"Yes I blackmailed you and I still could. I know you meet outside the school. Do you want everyone to know your disgusting secret?" YooRa confessed with a taunting smirk
"Fuck off"
YooRa walked up to him, wearing a sickeningly sweet smile as she spoke
"You sure don't want everyone to know that you are a little gay slut who fucked his way to leadership, do you?" she drew circles at Jin's chest as if she was saying something romantic
"Say that again and I might forget that you are a girl" SeokJin hissed, trying not to land a hit to the girl he once treasured.
"Try me gay boy" then YooRa  pushed him away as she walked out, leaving a troubled SeokJin biting his lips.

Tbc...
OMG THIS IS SO BAD. I made you wait and this is still badly written.  T.T ... don't leave me lovelies! Just treat this like a bridge or something. Hope this chappy brings a liltte light to the confusion? Or is there more confusion. BTW. Happy holidays!