Not going to give up

Making a promise

>Rin's POV<

Memories of my life flashed in my mind of when I was small, when my father died, when i started to go to cram school to become an exorcist, how I made friends, then when Bon entered the house and saw my cuts. 'No what am i going to do now he saw my cuts' I panicked, i tried opening my eyes but they felt heavy i didn't wanted to open my eyes, my mind pleaded some rest. I still fought and open my eyes to see that I wasn't in my dorm anymore, I was in some sort of cottage. I sat up and swung my legs to the floor. I noticed I wasn't using the same clothes I was using when i passed out. I standed up and tried to walk, emphasize the try because I only took one step when I fell to the floor with a thud. "aaah fucking weakness of mine" I cursed under my breath trying to get off the floor, suddenly out of nowhere Bon appeared at the door and walked towards me. I panicked and started to scoot backwards until my back hit the bed. "Please don't hurt me, just leave me alone" I pleaded with tears in my eyes. I was hurted enough and i didn't want him to hurt me more. Bon stopped for a second then advanced towards me stopping right in front of me. I took a deep breath and braced myself, hugging my knees to my chest and hiding my face in them. But nothing came, no shouting, no kicking. I looked to where Bon was and saw he had kneeled in front of me, Bon leaned forward and I hid myself again but when I felt strong arms wrap around me I let go of all the tears that had build up.

>Bon's POV<

I was at the kitchen trying to figure out how to make the final touches to the onigiri i'd made when i heard a thud from the bedroom. I immediately went there and opened the door seeing Rin on the floor apparently trying to stand up, i went forward to help him but Rin's eyes went wide with fear and he scooted away until his back hit the bed. "Please don't hurt me, just leave me alone" Rin pleaded tears in his eyes. I stopped for a second startled at what Rin had said, then walked forwards towards him. Rin hugged his knees to his chest and hid his face, I got to him and kneeled in front of him, Rin looked up and i leaned forward and he hid his face again. 

I embraced Rin's fragile body and felt him start to cry into my chest. "shh, rin it's ok, i promise i won't hurt you, shh it's ok" i said softly into his ear. Rin hugged me back and cried harder, I hugged him crose and started saying sweet nothings into his ear until he stopped crying. Rin pushed at me and i let him go, "I'm sorry bon i don't know what happened, i'm sorry" Rin looked up at me and i noticed just how broken he really was. His once joyful, full of life eyes were now dull and full of sorrow. "You don't need to apologize Rin, you haven't done anything wrong" i said to him. Rin looked down and started to play with his fingers. "I'm sorry" rin said again. "Rin you don't need to apologize come on i made some food, it might not be as tasty as the food you make but i think it's good enough to eat" i said. Rin nodded slowly and tried to stand but fell to the floor. "Here i'll help you" I said and picked him up carring him into the kitchen and setting him down on a chair. 

I went and retrieve the onigiri then put it in front of rin. "Here Rin eat this maybe it'll help get your strength back" I said and sat besides him on chair. "thank you" Rin whispered and began eating he just ate half of one when he said he was done and couldn't eat anymore. "fine then at least you ate something" I said carring his and my plate to the sink and started to wash them, I was half trough washing the dishes when rin asked me something. "Bon why are you helping me?" I rinsed my hands and looked towards him. "Rin i'm helping you because i care about you" I said and sat down besides him. "Do you really care for me?" Rin said looking up at me. "Of course i do why wouldn't i care for you?" Rin looked at me and i sigh. "Rin please believe me i truly care for you, i don't want to see you get hurt or seeing you hurting yourself, Rin try not to do it any more at least okay, when you feel like doing it just think about good things and come get me okay, but please don't hurt yourself any longer" I said and hugged him. 

Rin didn't answered me he just hugged back. We stayed like that for a few minutes and then rin finally said, "i promise i'll try my best for you i don't want to hurt you or anybody and if hurting myself hurts you then i will try and stop" I smiled and hugged him tighter then let go of him. "Don't worry rin i know you can do it if you try now why don't we go outside when i finish washing the dishes eh?" I said standing up and going towards the sink again. "Yes, i'll like that thanks for being nice to me Bon?" Rin said smiling a real genuine smile for the first time in weeks. I smiled and thought, 'wow i didn't notice just how much i missed his smiles and laughs til now' then i went back to washing the dishes smiling.