IN FOR IT!

Where To Now?

"SHHHHH HUSH." Quay said in urgency to keep me quiet but I couldn't believe he was alive. I didn't know what to do. Hell I didn't even know how to feel. Why didn't he tell me? Is he with someone else now? All of these questions zooming through my mind caused a strong feeling of anger to consume me and I started pushing and punching him. "You fucking asshole, why did you leave me I loved you and you left me all alone to fend for myself in this cold as world knowing damn well I can't live without you!" I shouted while shoving him harder. " ya...I'm telling you right now to chill...the fuck out before I hurt your stupid ass in this alley." He said very darkly while holding my arms over my head. Feeling so confused, hurt, betrayed, and helpless I just surrendered and began crying. He let go of my arms and pulled me into a warm loving embrace. "Stop crying ya...you forgot you left ME in the alley..I know I told you to but damn you could have called or something." He said sounding the most hurt I ever heard. I broke away from his arms and shot daggers at him with my eyes. Warm tears continued to make their way down my face as I shook my head at him. "No....no..no you will NOT pin this on me. Do you have any FUCKING CLUE WHAT I'VE BEEN THROUGH WITHOUT YOU?!?!" I yelled. I couldn't believe he was doing this. Tears fell rapidly as I told him "For Jesus sake quay...I lost our baby..because...because I was so depressed about losing you!" I explained to him while I watched his mood change. His eyes got huge for a second then he grabbed me into a hug holding me. I felt a warm liquid drop on my shoulder and I realized he was crying too. "I'm sorry ya and I know you are too..you dont have to say it because I know your heart. You know I always wanted a baby with you." I cried harder because I know if none of this would have happened he would have been a great father. "We was both wrong...but is okay now alright?" He said to me while wiping my tears. "I love you" he confessed to me while he kissed my lips ever so lightly yet passionate at the same time. "I love you too" I said to him while we let each other go. "Now...where do we go from here?" I asked a bit unsure. "Do you love me ya ya?" He asked me looking deep into the windows of my soul. "I always have, always will, and I'm certain that I can't stop." I said peering back into his beautiful brown orbs. "Then let's go make our baby!" He said while picking me up bridal style.