Lydia and I grew apart and went our seperate ways, she got a new friend- Cara- and I left myself alone withought a friend soon I felt as if nothing was right my life was just a stupid game that everyone always changed the rules in jsut to make it harder on me. Everyone started to date and I was alone. I went back to John and tried to date him, but It wasn't real what I felt for him anymore. So I went back to being alone. No one noticed how desperate I was to date someone , I was desperate because I was alone, no body else liked me bacause I wasnt pretty. I was ugly. And so I spent my nights crying alone in my room, but my favorite place to cry, was the shower because no body knows your crying the water mixes with the tears.
