The Last Wish | H.S

Chapter 3.

Next day, 8am, first chemotherapy..

"I'm sorry honey, I know you don't wanna do this, but it will help you, and it will increase your changes of getting cured" mom said giving me a small smile. It was hard enough for me to get up at 7am and it was only to do this shit. I know it's suppose to make me better, but the truth is, that I'm just really scared.

"Miss Laura? It's time for your treatment" a nurse came and said to me. She said to follow her into this weird looking room. I instantly felt sick, the room smelled awful lot like death, and well it was filled with old people sitting in blue chairs with a needle stuck in their arm, and the medicine was pumping in to their systems. This was like so depressing, even the TV looked depressing it was showing The Fault In Our Stars, like why would they show that? The boy ends up dying, not exactly helping my situation.

The nurse said that I should take place in the blue chair and she would come back and kill me.. No just kidding she would just inject the chemo into my arm.
"Okay Laura I know you don't like this, but it will be over in no time, you won't even feel a thing!" The nurse insured me will taking my arm and pressing the needle into my skin. I closed my eyes and could feel a tear rolling down my cheek, but suddenly the nurse told me to open my eyes, and said "Done, now that wasn't that bad was it?" And frankly it wasn't, I seriously thought I would be crying and totally freaking out, but I could hardly feel it. "You will be sitting here for an hour, and then I'll come back and check on you! You might feel a bit dizzy, so make sure to drink the Coke I
placed next to you at the table!" The nurse said and left.

Boy.. 6 weeks of this shit, I really don't know if I can take it.

I was suddenly interrupted by my mother "hey honey, OMG YOU'RE STILL ALIVE, HOW IS THIS POSSIBLE?!" she said while laughing and smiling so big that it was actually creeping me out.."Haha mother you're so funny, and for the record it wasn't that bad actually, so yea I'm alive!" I said while sticking my tongue out at her.

"Laura I found this book about cancer. It explains everything about cancer in general, and also how the chemotherapy works, maybe you could read it so you could understand what they're actually injecting into your system?" "Yea maybe later mom, I'm trying to watch this really depressing movie about two kids with cancer, one of them ends up dying you know.." I said with a half smile on my face." Oh honey I don't think you should watch that, I'll ask the nurse to change it to something else, something less depressing maybe? " . "Nah.. It's fine, my life is depressing anyways, so I don't think it's possible for it to be even more depressing right?" I said seeing my mother didn't find it funny at all. "Right.. Well honey i'll go buy us some lunch, would you like some burgers?" mom asked trying to change the subject, "sure sounds good!" She left and went to buy us some food.

"Laura, you're done with your first chemo! I will see you again in a week, maybe if the treatment is working correctly, it will be in two weeks, cause as you know, we've been giving you a quite aggressive treatment so it should be working, but if you have any questions you're welcome to call the hospital any time you'd like! Hope it wasn't too bad for you, and if it was, just remember it's for your own good!" The nurse said and gave me a hug. I thanked the nurse and walked down to my mom, who was waiting in the parking lot.

Not that it's a surprise, but when we arrived home I went directly to my room, and jumped on to my bed, lately it's been the only place where I feel free. I feel like I can just lay here forever and the cancer would just go away, but sadly that was just too easy. Suddenly my phone was buzzing, it was my friend Chloé who sent me a text;

Chloé💗
Hey Laura, I was wondering if you were going to the 1D concert on Friday? Me and my cousins are going, will i see you there? x
Wait on Friday, that's the day after tomorrow, shit is it really happening already? God I must of forgotten it!
Me;
Hey Chloé, sadly no, I will not be going to the concert, I can't afford it and I didn't even know it was on this Friday, I'm so happy for you that you got tickets. Wish it we was me though..You're very lucky! But have a good concert. Come visit me soon! xx

Of course I was jealous, does that make me a bad friend? But I just couldn't help it, Chloé has always gotten everything she ever wanted. She lives in a huge mansion and her parents have got like so much money, they could probably buy the whole concert! I remember when we were like 7 years old and I would go home to their "house" for her birthday, I gave her a homemade drawing and a homemade headband, and when it was my birthday, she gave me a trampoline and a bicycle. I felt so embarrassed cause I couldn't afford those big and great things. But when we grew older, it got worse. She once gave me this super expensive bag, and I said to her that I couldn't take it, it was just too much cause I would never be able to give her the same, so I returned the bag, without her knowing and kept the money.

She found out, I really don't know how, but ever since that, our friendship has changed, she almost never talks to me, and that text message was the first time she's been speaking to me for months, and I'm sure it was only because she felt bad for me, and because she wanted to brag about her getting tickets, I'm sure her daddy bought her meet n' greet as well. She doesn't even like them that much, and she knows how much I love them, I'm sure it's only to take revenge for what I did with the bag, but honestly I think what she is doing...if I'm right about it, that it's like ten times worse, than what I did. And the worst is that I'm pretty she sure knows what it's doing to me..

Chloé
Oh bad for you! It sucks you can't go, but I will send you lots of pictures! My daddy bought meet 'n greet, so I will get to meet Harry! Yeah! Im sooo excited like he's actually really hot! But I'll send you a picture of me kissing him on the cheek, and I'll try to get a video where he says hello to you. I'm not sure when I can visit you but I'll contact you soon! Love you byee x

Sure whatever you dumb bitch! He's actually hot blah blah "love you"...should've said " I hate you so much and I still haven't got over the bag thing yet :))))" but of course she did what she do best, brag about all the things she gets, and tells me cause she knows I will never have them.

It was so obvious that she's still pissed at me for what I did, but honestly I needed the money. The bag was worth more than my whole closet and even add a little extra! I know it wasn't nice of me, but she found out, and got really pissed. I had actually planned to tell her about it, but clearly someone else did that for me.

But yea sure whatever send me pics of your amazing night! It would not make me feel like shit at all nope.. so go ahead Chloé...But of course I wasn't brave enough to write what I was really feeling so instead I simply just answered;
Me;
Oh thank you that's so nice of you! Have fun x

When will I stop being this insecure and maybe just start taking some risks and be honest? Oh wait now I know why...the cancer! It's making me feel shit about myself and it sure ain't helping my self esteem.

Before I got sick I wasn't that confident either, cause I've never been the prettiest girl. I'm 5'5, I got dark brown hair, with blonde dip dye, and blue eyes, and Im curvy, not fat nor model skinny, but the boys didn't seem to find me attractive so I guess I just started to believe them.

I know this may sound childish, but God I could really use someone to just for once, tell me that everything will be okay, and that I'm a beautiful girl, hopefully that one will be here soon, or else I don't know what I'm gonna do.

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