If only I’d stayed home,
If only life wasn’t so cruel—
Why did I ever leave home?
If only I hadn’t wanted adventure,
If only I didn’t have dreams—
Why did I make those choices?
If only I hadn’t taken that last drink,
If only I didn’t drive that car—
Why couldn’t I wait for my friends?
If only I’d known I was pregnant,
If only I had taken better care—
Why didn’t I stop?
If only I saw the sign,
If only the car saw me—
Why didn’t I notice the pain?
If only,
If only,
If only,
If only I had known all that I would lose—
Why didn’t I worry about what was happening to me?
