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*sigh*

•Editor Nic•
I noticed after coming back to this after pacing around, ranting to myself, yelling a lot, crying, and breaking a few things that this was a bit of a rant so I thought you might want to know that

•Nic that wrote this•

So my "friend" that I'm staying with for the break brought something to my attention. So I apparently did something that ended up with her yelling at me and being the person I am I actually listened even tho I didn't give a shit. And she brought up some stuff up that I do on a regular basis that I thought was cool and wasn't rude or anything. Here are a few:

1) (I think this is what I did that caused her to yell at me) if you are crying and you run into the room I'm in to cry I won't do shit. There are a few exceptions but I will most likely will not do shit. I will most likely just continue to do what I was doing pretending I didn't see you. I know this most likely seems really cruel, but some of my close friends that know and understand how I think know that the reality is if I actually did try to comfort you I would most likely end up making you hate me or feel much much worse.

2) (this next one goes mostly for chats) if an argument starts I won't leave the chat but I will most likely not say shit. Why, because like if I try to comfort you I will most likely make shit a lot fucking worse. Also if you try to start an argument with me it doesn't work. Why, well I fucking hate being in arguments and I'll try to smart ass my way out of it or not say shit. Why do I hate arguments you may be asking. Because arguments only make me feel like crying more than I do already on a regular fucking basis.

3) I will fucking ignore you. No matter who the fuck you are I will make it seem like I'm fucking ignoring you. The thing that I'm pretty sure makes most people annoyed it that they think I'm actually ignoring them. The thing is most of the time I'm listening I just don't care enough to stop doing what I was doing.

Then there were others that didn't make sense to me except for the one that if you don't get something that I find really really fucking easy I will look at you like an idiot. I know it's annoying I just can't help it.

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