Why Do I Love You? (Biadore)

The craving lust

'I'm walking back from the after party tears beaming down my face, my eyelash on my cheek and my wig like a bird nest. Why did I tell her! Just why. I needed to hold it in, I'm so stupid!'

Three days before....
I'm packing up from Drag race and waiting for my fame to go down hill I joked. I really going to miss this place, it feels like I can be free; no hiding, no turn back to my old life and not spreading my secret. My untolded addiction for a drag queen of the compilation. That I admire, look to and lust for. No not the talented Miss Courtney Act but the prepossessing, Lovable, inviting bitch herself Bianca Del Rio. Her gown always hits the floor, her smile is to die for and her honesty, I pretend to hate it but In fact I love it! I pack my belonging up; heels, dresses in all shapes and sizes for me hog body, wigs (mainly blonde) and my whore makeup. As head out of the door hoping for a glimpse of Bianca but sadly not.

I check in to the hotel where all of my non successful candidate are as I run it to Laganja Estranja 'Ganja'
"Gurl looking flawless mama!" With a tongue pop at the end. I justed grimed, me and her were close; doing makeup together, partying and most of all in comfort. However she is no Ganja I remember, now she is a brat who death drops all the while. If I took her foot steps and not be me I would have gone first. I was destined to be in the top three, not a drag queen who says I tried. Slowly walking away i see everyone but no Bianca. This is strange. As I search I run in to BenDeLaCreme 'Dela' as she smiles and bawled
"Who are you looking for"
I stared, I couldn't say it! Would be too suspicious, that I had a crush on Bianca. So I just croaked
" No one just looking around"
She glared for a while then delightfully said
"Wow it's been a journey? Hasn't it?" Linking my arm, I nodded. We walked to the front desk to settle there for a conversation. She jumbles on how she thought she did and what she thought she could do better. I listened well pretend I was listening until I stiffened up as the down blew open. There she was my drug! Bianca.

The door opened softly as she strutted in, her makeup done perfectly, dress on point and a suitible wig. As I stud there like a whore in a shorts, a tank top saying 'Fuck you', a blonde rats nest on my head, slutty heels and slapped on makeup. I felt ashamed. I would never be classy like her or sexy in my opinion. I look to the ground, hoping she doesn't notice me. As Dela still rambling on, she discovers I'm not listening, she waves her hand in my face like a baboon. I look up to her concerned face as I say
"I'm sorry, I'm just tried I've been worked to fucking death!" I panter with exhausted, she nodded and declares
" You need rest I'll see you later" then skips away to Darienne.

I sigh with relief, how can I hold it in? I just want to shout from the roof tops that I love Bianca Del Rio! I look to the ground in disguise. As footsteps eoch to my region, I look up to see Bianca fucking Del Rio. Shit shit!
"Hey pizza bitch how you doing?"
She mocked I just looked at her, she laughed and I said
" I'm alright, just gland it's over!"
Sighing. She nodded and hugged me. I hated when she did this. She smells so good. It's has been 15 seconds of hugging why hasnt she pulled away yet? Should I pull away? Until I could do anything she pulls away she said
"I'm signing in now so you better move bitch" as she pushes me a side to go to the desk, laughing while doing it. I watched her sigh in as I wished I could tell her how I feel. Handing the pen over and belowed
"Are you sighing in or what?" Smirking while I sigh in.

Grabbing my arm she pulls me to the lift, as I passed by I got hold of my suitcase and we head to the lift. While we were in the lift she jokes about me saying stupid stuff like my stupid saying, come backs and unknowning of things, but I don't care. I watch her lips move up and down. Oh how much I wanted to kiss them, they where cherry red and kissable. Out of the blew she caught me day dreaming and blurred out
"Hey party whore!" I look up to see her frowning at me,
"COME BACK TO EARTH. IS YOUR AZUSA SPIECES CALLING YOU FOR PIZZA!" She yells, I just look as I hated when she calls me all of those things but really I could listen to her bitch all day! Laughing her head off the lift opened on floor 7. She steps out first, I can't help just check her out. Her ass is amazing, than mine as it clings to her dress more. After her I stepped out of the lift to follower her onwards to my room and hers.