Have you ever felt so much emotional pain that it physically hurt you?
Many people think I'm mean , when simply I am broken . Hell first began for me the day my mother was diagnosed with cancer . I lay there crying in her arms . She lay there crying into mine. My 7
year old brother Zavien walks in breaking the silence "What's wrong ?" He spoke with confusion plastered on his face . I look at my mother wandering how'll she'll drop this bomb . Once when Zavien was 3 and I was 8 we had a pet bird named Ziggy . My mom allowed our grandpa to feed the bird oatmeal and later that day he died , because birds don't eat oatmeal . We never felt sad about Ziggy's death , she told us in a way that didn't make it that sad . If anybody is a great person at bearing bad news , it was most definitely her " Zavien , my love." She said softly while gently grasping his face . "The doctors called and gave mommy some very upsetting news . " Zavien looked at her the way he looks at me when I tell him I'm on my monthly , plain confusion . " what do you mean upsetting news ? " he asked and I could tell he was getting anxious and the entire process was making him slightly impatient . She said it , So fast even I didn't almost catch it . "Cancer." She said it in a whisper. When she spoke I could feel the spirit of sadness overwhelming me
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The words suffocated me every time I heard them . Zavien just stood there . In complete shock , I closed my eyes and took a deep breath trying to hold it together for his sake in the midst of my mediation I heard a weep so precious you'd think somebody died . I open my eyes to see tears falling from his face , I could see the world falling apart in his big brown gentle eyes . No one said anything we all lay there quietly , until Zavien finally opened his mouth breaking the shield of pure silence . " Does this mean your gonna die ? ."
One Christmas Zavien had got a brand new helicopter and the moment it went outside it landed in the street and was ran over by a car . I had never seen Zavien cry as hard as he did when that happened , until now. The tears just kept coming , he wiped and the number of tears doubled from the time before . Still no one spoke . Zavien simply climbed into bed with us , and we all lay there in silence comforting eachother. No one knew what to say because there was nothing to say .
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Breaking the silence
Teen FictionShe's 14 and she already knows the true meaning of pain , between boy's death and struggle how can one survive
