Breaking the silence

Chapter 2

Chapter 2

It was dusk of July 11, 2013
I now lay in bed staring at the moon through my window . I lay there allowing tears to flow freely down my face under the belief of being the only one awake . I hear the front door open and someone coming up the stairs I see the master bedroom light come on down the hall . The words are faint but I hear a couple . " And then she said .... And she said its aggressive ... And the kids know I've told them . "  I didn't need an entire conversation to know what my mother was referring to in the conversation she was engaging in with my soon to be step father Mark. After five minutes of silence which I supposed was him comforting her he left the room and went down stairs, I heard the sound of the patio door closing . Loud wasn't even the word , you'd think  someone was being murdered the screaming was so intense  . Anger that's all I heard , there was pure anger there I didn't hear sadness , he sounded strictly upset .
After about an hour he came back up stairs and settled down. My ears were finally at peace .  I peered at the electric clock on the nightstand next to the tv attempting to check the time when my brother stalled my train of thought . "A'zia?" I peer up at the bunk above me holding my brother . "Zavien, you've been awake this entire time, why didn't you say something . ?"  He climbed down from his bed stood in front of me and waved his hand at me signaling for me to move over and make room for him . He layed down next to me and whispered " say what, what is there to say ?" I looked at him with sad eyes . "You heard Mark huh? " " I think people on the other side of town heard him . "  I held him in my arms knowing he needed this hug now more then ever .

"Good morning !" She said with a smile spread across her face ,  I came down stairs only to find her cooking breakfast with a bright smile plastered on her face . Zavien following closely behind with a look of dissatisfaction . We sat at the table as she set out plates in front of us . We sat and ate in silence . "So what do you guys wanna do today ?" Zavien looked her with strict disapproval on his face. " I'm to sad to do anything , how can you be happy ? How can you act like nothing  is happening ?  " " Zavien . We will not let cancer rip this family apart again, I strictly forbid it . " 

Allow me to catch you up to speed on some things . When I was 7 and Zavien was about 2  my grandmother died of cancer allowing all hell for my family to break loose . After her death my mom and her siblings were on a strictly need to know bases and a " I'm only gonna pretend to like you at large family gatherings but outside of that we will not engage in any interaction "  Which really sucked considering the bond I have with my cousins .  My grandpa sorta spiraled after my grandmothers death , he went from a drinking problem to a complete alcoholic sweet as pie and wouldn't harm anyone but after her death he was harming all of us with his drinking and was oblivious to the whole situation .

" Well it's not my fault you don't wanna talk to Aunty Sonya ! "  My brother spoke without even sounding a little bit sorry for being this disrespectful . My mother sat there in shock , we all did actually considering Zavien usually had a hard time stating  his opinion . " Excuse me ?"  Zavien hesitated but I guess he came to the realization he had already dug him self deep and had nothing left to loose . " I mean how can you just stop talking to your sister , that would be like me stop talking to A'zia ."  I must say for a 7 year old Zavien stated it way better then I could've and I was 12 . " Ok."  I dropped my fork in complete shock  " ok .... Ok!?" My jaw dropped . " I got in trouble for telling a teacher that I had asthma and she needed to be sure she had insurance before I ran and you go off on me but Zavien just lectured you like your his child and all he gets is ok ?"  She looked at me and laughed . " you were out of line for that , Zavien is right though , we should speak . "  Mark turned to look at Zavien raising his hand signaling a high five " High five for sticking it to the man ." My mom glared at him " I mean sticking it to the WO-man?" She laughed and we ate my mind finally settled on something that wasn't the cancer . I just wanted to enjoy this moment .