It's 2am and Emily's family and her aren't here since they're on a vacation they've planned for a long time. Their probably gonna be back in a week or two. I have to watch the house by myself but what am I going to do? Emily's busy with life, Daniel and I broke up, and I can't get out unless it's for food.
I miss him so much, my heart slowly is getting ripped in half. The sound of tearing echoes in my body as the outside I'm bawling my eyes out. I can't believe I've sabotaged our relationship, I'm so stupid! I miss him so much.
I'll just sleep.
It's 8am, what a waste of time what am I gonna do? I'm just gonna stay in bed and eat ice cream all day. I put on my sad music that relates to me so much. I cry singing along to the music and thinking of Daniel. I pick up the knife and think should I end my sorrow? Should I end my hurt? Should I end my life? I scream, "I LOVE YOU DANIEL! I miss you so much."
I hear a knock on the door. Daniel texts me while I go down the stairs. I text back and check the door. He wants me back because he knows what I've been through with him, my family, and life. I ignore his texts. I check the door and no-one appears to be there. I close it quickly and lock it.
My other friend Kaylie texts me. She mentions that a hot guy likes me. She tells me more as I fall in love with someone I don't know. Wow someone who actually loves me. Like how I truly love Daniel, like how it was with my full heart and effort to make our relationship the most romantic but then I ruined it over my obsession of him.
Daniel texts me again.
I'm nervous. He never texts like this, he must really want me back. He sent a video. I watch it and it's a bunch of selfies of us that I took. Don't judge I took a lot. At the end it's him, crying. He says how much he wants me back. He puts a picture of all of his baby pics and of him currently that make my heart melt. The video ends with him saying he loves me. I've never been so confused about anything. I love him, but I hate him.
My phone rings, it's Daniel. I answer.
"Are you busy? I want to talk about... us." he says.
"I can't right now, you can't just tell me it's over and tell me after a short amount of time you want me back." I reply. I end the call, I sob. I'm so stupid.
I fall asleep. First, my heart ripped in the middle and now it's stitching itself back up like its brand new. I hear the tear ripping more and the stitches stop.
I don't want him anymore. 😞
