What Am I?(Black Butler fanfic)

-15- Truth

Sorry that some of the characters are a little bit OOC, but I'll make it up to you in the next few chapters.

Honestly, training five days before Christmas was absurd.

"Sebastian do I have to train? I have to go Christmas shopping!"

I followed Sebastian deep into the woods and he merely shook his head.

After hours of training I collapsed onto my bed face down.

This was weird

I'm not tired anymore

I don't have to sleep anymore, but I choose to

Sebastian told me he rarely sleeps, but what does he do at night?

I got up and shrugged.

I have to tell Finny what I am

I rushed outside, and saw Finny sitting underneath the cherry tree.

"Finny I need to tell you something."

He looked at me and stood up a smile on his face.

"What is it?"

I look down.

"I don't think we should date anymore."

I looked up and he looked like he was going to cry.

"But I l-love you!"

I started crying.

"I Love you too, but you don't know what I am."

He looks confused.

"What?"

I sighed.

"I'm, I'm a demon and you shouldn't be around me Finny. I don't want to hurt you!"

He shook his head and stepped closer, and grabbed my shoulders.

"I don't care what you are, I still love you."

I started to cry harder, the he hugs me softly.

"Finny if it's okay I'd like to take a break from dating if that's fine."

he pushes back and smiles.

"Of course! I'll be happy to date you again!"

I smile and hug him.

"Thank you."

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The next four days of training were easier, while Sebastian was perfect like always. I was average, like always. I fell onto the ground for the hundredth time and didn't get up.

"He's too perfect."

I muttered quietly.

"I am not perfect, no one is perfect or ever will be. You have to get up."

I shook my head, still lying on the ground.

My mind flickers back from earlier.

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"You have to understand how vital this is Alina, you need to pay more attention and effort into it"
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"Why do you even care."

I was pulled up from the ground at great speed and smashed into Sebastian's chest, I looked up into his eyes with a bored expression, and he was furious.

"I know Claude is going to take you, and if I'm not here then you need to be able to protect yourself. The young Master wishes for me to help you."

I frowned and pushed him away.

"Is that the only reason?"

I say walking away, leaning on a tree. Sebastian looks away.

"No."

I raise my eyebrows and cross my arms.

"The servants and townspeople care about you."'

I shook my head.

"What about you Sebastian, you never really explained to me how you really felt."

He sighs.

"When I first saw you that day I craved you, to eat your soul, or so I thought. It was so innocent and kind, but as I got to know you. I realize it wasn't your soul, it was you. Well, your soul isn't there anymore, but I can still feel the traces of it. I felt something strange, and it was something I never thought I could feel."

"Love..."

He nodded curtly and turned to look at me.

"When you were dying it hurt me gravely and I wanted you to know how I felt, before you died. I am certainly glad you're okay now."

I smiled.

"Sebastian, when I first met you...I thought you were cute. Don't kill me."

He smiled, and walked closer.

"Why would I do that?~"

"I don't know, reasons."

He stopped right in front of me, and his eyes flashed pink. I grabbed his tie and smiled.

I could feel my eyes change color.

"Hmm my butler."

He kissed me for a moment and I started to walk away.

"Where are you going?"

He asked shoving his nose into my business like always.

"Sorry it's a secret."

I ran into London, and went Christmas shopping as fast as I could. After I bought everything I still had that same sentence that would ring my mind.

"The Phantomhives, and that butler of theirs. They aren't what they seem you know"

I shouldn't believe him, Ciel told me he was filth

But how do you know if you can believe him

We're friends

I shot back to my subconcious

Hmm We'll see, I don't trust him

I shoved it away and continued shopping with the wages I saved up.

What should I get for Sebastian?

He told me he doesn't like material things, so I have to think of something

My eye turned towards some yarn.

Ah ha!

I quickly grabbed black, yellow, pink, and gray yarn.

Ha this is going to be perfect!

I rushed home, while it was slowly turning into nightfall. I ran into my room and started knitting.

He'll love it

But what if he hates it?

He won't, trust me subconscious

Hmph