Dan's P.O.V.
Did I seriously just do that? Oh my god it's too late to take it back. Phil's reading it. Oh my god. What if I'm not the guy he likes?? This is awkward... I think I just ru-
"D-dan, y-you like m-me?" The words I never thought I'd here. I have a small awkward smile.
"Ya. Ever since I first met you, I-I have just loved you. I never thought I'd admit this, but you are the one that made me stop-" am I seriously about to tell him about my arms? I rub my arm awkwardly and flinch at the memory.
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Dan's memory
"Little faggot, get your ass in here and get my money! Go buy my beer! Now! Or you know what'll happen!" I flinched at her words. Or you know what'll happen. I rubbed the bruise on my head softly.
"C-coming!" I got the money (£50 for a damn beer case? Definitely drunk). At the store I grab the beer and pull out my I.D. I look at the display at the front of the aisle. Should I get the razors? Mom would never know... I end up buying them.
When I get home I give mum her beer and take the razors in the bathroom. Should I do it? I've never done it before, and mum would never know... I do it. I open the package and take up the first razor. Internal pain, GONE! *slash* mum's words, GONE! *second slash* i hate my life!!! I hate everything!! Will it ever get better?
I watch the blood drip down my arm, satisfied at the tingling sensation it gives me. I could do this more often.
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Back to present
"Made you stop what, dan? You can tell me anything." God I can't do this with words. I pull up m sleeve an let him look at my scars. He gasps. Knew it. "Why did you do it?"
By now I'm crying silently, so we walk back to the flat. When we get there I say, "my mum made me feel so worthless. It was my escape from that pain: different pain."
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Phil's P.O.V.
"I'm so sorry, dan. I had no idea. Well, since you texted your guy," I changed the subject, "I guess I could text mine." I whipped my mobile out and scrolled through my conversations looking for dan. I clicked on his name and typed 4 simple words: "I love you too".
A/N
Sorry for that. It had to come in. I see where I am taking this story now so can't wait to write!! Also, I don't exactly know what people who self-harm think, so I just kinda put what I would have thought they think. If you have something better, please let me know so I can change it. Tbh I've been feeling pretty down lately and have thought about it, but i never do end up convincing myself to.
Sorry you probs didn't care about that. Just kinda upset.
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