Outcast

Four

I wish
I could just
Drink.

Drink,
Drink,
Drink,
And drink.

I want to drink
Until words
Are nothing but silence or white noise.

I want to numb myself.

I want to forget my head and my feelings.

I want
To
Drink
Away
The
Night.

Bubbly
Giggles.

Or

Sad
Sobs.

Would be better than this
Emptiness
That I feel.

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I can't
Speak.

I can't
Breathe.

I'm so weak.

We don't meet.

I can't make
Myself
Feel better
Without being
Alone.

I want to make myself
Throw up.
Starve.
Run.

...
Die.

Too many old things come back when I only want to escape the past.

I'm so sorry
Please don't hate me

I know I'm worthless
Insecure
Messed up
And broken
But I'm sorry

Babe I'm so so damn sorry.

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I think

about lying.

Saying I feel

com-plete.

But I don't.

I'm not

fucking complete.

My eyes are

cold

but they burn.

Music

blurs

with

James'

soothing

voice.

He says

I'm angry

at him.

He actually

thinks

that I am.

But he doesn't understand,

right now

my mind

IS

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(~)