Marry Me

Final

I'm frustrated right now, really really frustrated and I hate myself to the moon and back. I have pinched myself and punched myself and even slapped myself but I'm still stupid. Why am I a big stupid and a loser?

Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. I've been chanting that for a thousand times today and a million times for the past few weeks and a billion times for the days to come. Ugh, stupid Taehyung and stupid me. We're both stupid but I'm more stupid. Ugh. STUPID ME T.T

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Taehyung and I have been dating for seven years now and still counting. Back in high school, we we're both each other's first loves and first in everything so our relationship was envied by others and was treasured by us. It's funny how we used to tease and to annoy each other just to get the other's attention. We were the dog and cat, Tom and Jerry, in our classroom and ironically, we end up being together. People used to tease us, saying things like "We knew you like each other" or "You used to fight, now I'm not used in seeing the two of you being lovey-dovey, I just want to throw up" but we never mind them; instead, we became more lovey-dovey to annoy them.

Our confession was unplanned. During our Junior Prom, while we we're dancing with our respective partners, me and Yunah, my partner, were laughing when suddenly Taehyung drag me outside, shouting at me and end up confessing to me. With a blushing face, I confessed, too. And we never returned to the Hall where the dance is held after that, instead, we stayed outside, in the garden with a fountain beside it, and hearing the music lightly, we had our last dance, we we're each other's last dances.

It's funny how people reacted when Taehyung and I went to school together the next day, holding each other's hands. They look like someone who saw a ghost with mouth gaping and eyes wide open. There were even a couple of girls who fainted, they can't believe that we're together for real but we just laugh it off, after all, we don't need to pretend to hate each other and annoy each other because the truth is, we like each other to the point of doing the most evil way to get your crush's attention and it's a good feeling that we both confessed and admit our own feelings. Ahh, it's nice to be in love.

We graduated in high school and went to the same university. I took up Engineering while Taehyung took up Psychology. Even though our buildings were on different ends, we still manage to eat lunch together and we also met amazing people who became our group of friends. Rapmon-hyung and Jin-hyung were my classmates in Math and when the three of us became group mates one time, we started to hang out together. I remembered how we spent an overnight in our house just to solve 20 items, finding what is x? J-hope hyung and Suga-hyung were Taehyung's classmates with almost all his subjects so the three of them became close and ended up being friends. I remembered how I became jealous of the two and even asked them for a fist-fight. I also remembered how Taehyung laugh his ass off when I did that, while J-hope and Suga looked at me, dumbfounded. Taehyung ruffled my hair along with "Aigoo, my Jiminie is jealous? And how can you win with this two? You're so cute~" and kissed me. I felt embarrassed at that, especially when J-hope and Suga realized what the matter was and burst into laughter. I remembered how I pouted that time and punched him lightly in the chest while he giggled. Jungkook was the last one to be added in the group. The six of us were eating happily in the cafeteria one day when suddenly, Jungkook went to our table and kissed Suga. We were all frozen, just staring at their connected lips. We were just brought back to reality when we heard a slight movement behind him and we saw a girl fainted with a couple of her friends assisting her. Jungkook got a black eye that day.

We graduated in our respective courses and got a stable job. After 18 months of working, Taehyung proposed to me. We were having a dinner date when he suddenly blurted out the word 'wedding' and I feel so happy that I wanted to say yes right away but then, I decline his proposal, saying I have to saved money and that I'm still happy with our current relationship. I'm still not ready to settle down. Taehyung accepted my answer and smiled, saying "I understand. I'll wait until you're ready" while squeezing my hand. "Thank you" was my response.