Everything I Didn't Say

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❝Here's to everything I didn't say❞

in which a girl tags her favorite celeb, harry styles on Instagram every day until he follows her. 

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"Why are you so infatuated with him, El? I mean, chill the fuck out." 

I roll my eyes at my best friend's comment, setting down my phone temporarily to address the blasphemous words that came out of her mouth. 

"Did you hear yourself? Did you really just say what I think you did?" I say, surprised. I hold a hand to my chest dramatically, like, excuse you bitch. 

"He's Harry fucking Styles, that's why."

She rolls her eyes, throwing her paper cup of ice cream across my room and let's her head hang off my bed, her long, brown, curly hair shifting side to side as she stares at my white ceiling. I scoff and grab my phone, clicking on Twitter to check up again on more tweets from 5SOS Updates and 1D Updates. 

I'm a fangirl, and I regret nothing. These boys are my life, my children, the reason I am single. Honestly, though. I wouldn't ever cry if I met them (after all, they are people, not Jesus) but I really do look up to them. Their music is wonderful, but their personalities are better. But when it comes to Harry, it's totally different. 

"Have you ever felt a connection toward someone, Carson?" I ask, scrolling through Twitter some more. 

Carson sits up, twisting a hair tie around her hair to create a flawless messy bun. 

"I dunno, I guess. Like, attraction?" She asks. 

I chuckle, "I guess. But, I mean more than that. I mean, I am really gonna sound like a huge, obsessive fan right now, and maybe I am. But, I feel like with Harry, even though I have never met him, there is a connection."

Carson nods, glancing over at my phone to read a tweet by a fellow directioner I follow. 

"I would say it's a lot like a crush. I mean, he's your idol. I felt the same way with Jesse McCartney. But, you have to understand that a lot of girls feel the same way you do. Heck, you know that one girl on Youtube that does those cool videos with One Direction's music, about a lot of the boys and how she is in love with a lot of things about them? Maybe, for you it's similar." She replies, twirling my blonde hair, starting the beginning of a braid. 

I sigh out, letting her brush through my hair, and look up and out my window. 

"Maybe, you should like talk to him? Then you can see if it's just something made up in your head, or if this is like the real deal? Ya' know?" She says out of the blue. 

I snort, "Carson, you idiot. He's an A Class celebrity, he doesn't even follow me. So, I can't DM him. I mean, I did once, but he didn't read it. Why would he? He probably gets thousands a day." 

She nods understandingly, but announces a new, brilliant plan seconds later. 

"Well, you could always tag him."

I sit up straighter, my brain twisting with ideas. 

I grab my phone, a smile creeping onto my face, "You're a genius, Carson. How about I tag him in things like, love quotes or scandals or something? And then see if he ever replies?"

Carson chuckles, letting go of my hair and getting off my bed to go downstairs to raid my fridge. 

"Sounds like a plan, Stan!" She yells, already halfway downstairs. 

I laugh then yell out, "Hey, Carson?"

"Yeah?" She screams upstairs. 

"You're the Stan to my Louis!" I hold in a laugh, knowing that this always ticks my best friend off. She hates the whole Stan/Louis thing that everyone talks about on Twitter. She is a Louis girl, on steroids. However, NOT a larry shipper. 

"Shut the fuck up, I hate you, Elda." She snaps, slamming the refrigerator door closed. 

I groan at the use of my full name, she really knows how to get under my skin. I shake it off, grabbing my phone again and tapping on Harry's Instagram username, leading me to his page. 

Maybe she is right, maybe this is just some infatuation. But then again, 

maybe she's not. 

Yeah, so I dunno what I just wrote xD But I am really loving this story so far. What about all you?? Also, please know in real life I am not this obsessed with the boys xD (okay, maybe a little, but lets be honest, it's hard not to be a crazy fan about all of them.) I will try not to honestly offend anyone in this story, sorry if some fangirl comments offended you, but they are coming from my character, okay? Not me xD I'm not trying to offend anyone lol I am a directioner myself. 

Also, I have another Harry AU called Netflix and Chill, check it out! I will be updating it quite often.