Ashton Irwin's Twin??

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Vic's POV
I woke up sweating with tears coming out my eyes. I immideatly walk over to micheal. What wrong vi? He asks concerned.
I h-had a b-b-bad dream. I mumble as he pulls me into a hug. Shh he coos it's ok were here. Ashton gets up concerned as I pull away from Michael as my twin picks me up. You okay twin? He asks with concern in his eyes? I nod. He smiles and puts me down I decide to go in my room, I go into the bathroom and lock the door. I turn on the shower and strip of my clothes. Disgusting I mumble as I look in the mirror. I pull my hair back and shove 2 fingers down my throat forcing myself to vomit. I wash my mouth and fingers flush the toilet and step into the shower. I wash my hair and body, turn off the shower and step out. I get dressed (media) and find my razor. I make a couple cuts on my arms, hips and stomach. I clean up the cuts and put a black hoodie on and go to the boys room again. I send them a weak smile and go sit by Ashton. How are you twin? I ask. Can we talk he asks quietly. Uhh we will be right back guys. Ok! They all say. We walk to my room. What's wrong twin? I can't do it anymore, I can't freaking do it. Ashton murmurs tearing up. Do what? I ask. Smile and lie , smile and lie! I can't do it. He mumbles again. He looks up at me with sad eyes. Help me vi. Please, I sit down on the bed and he puts his head into the crease of my neck and let's out all his feelings while I rub his back and tell him it's ok. Finally he calms down and we go back into the boys room we cuddle together and I look at the boys mouthing I'll tell them later. I cuddle into Ashton and once he is asleep I tuck him in and the boys and I go downstairs to make lunch. I put some pizza rolls in the microwave and turn on a movie for the boys. I hear the microwave go off I take out the pizza rolls and set them on the table and I hear Ashton come downstairs I go greet him feeling any better? I whisper. A little he whispers back. Lunch is ready and before I can say it's hot Michael spit one on the floor and is rubbing his tongue. Let me get a knife to cut them so they cool off. I reach into the knife drawer and stupidly cut my finger I rush to the sink and grab a paper towel. Ow ow ow! I bite back tears. It's a little cut so I grab Neosporin and a bandaid. I cut the pizza rolls and serve the boys we sit at the table as I put some on my plate after eating a few I lose my appetite I'll be right back in going to the bathroom I say. I rush to the bathroom and let out everything I ate. I wipe my mouth and come back. I take a seat I close my eyes and take a deep breath. You okay sis? Ashton asks concerned holding my hand. I'm fine. I assure him and send him a weak smile. I get up and take out plates to the sink I wash them and dry them and put them away.  I sit down on the couch by Michael and put my head in my hands. You okay bud? He asks. I nod my head but the I quickly shake it after. What's wrong? He asks again. Can we talk upstairs about this? I ask quietly. Yep! He answers we go upstairs. What's wrong? He asks once more and right then and there I broke down crying. I-I'm f-fat, ugly,worthless. I don't eat when I do it comes back up and I'm depressed I just can't take the hate. I hear the door crack open and see Luke. L-Luke did you hear that? I ask quietly my lip trembling. He nods his head. Michael Luke please don't tell  anyone.  They nod. I want to go back downstairs I mumble we go back down and we cuddle on the couch. I fall asleep cuddling with my twin.