I Thought I Wanted Crazy Too

Everybody's Got Somebody But Me

I wish the couple on the corner would just get a room. Seems like everyone around me is on their honeymoon. I'd love to take a pin to a heart shaped balloon. Everybody's got somebody but me. I don't know how I landed on this movie set. It's like a casting call for 'Romeo and Juliet'. I never would have noticed if we'd never met. But everybody's got somebody but me

I sit in the park with my best friend and her boyfriend. The third wheel is how you could say i'm feeling right now. Brad and Joseanne are making out on their blanket in the grass while i'm on the park bench staring at the ground.

I hate looking around 'cause I always end up staring at the couples looking so happy. I look up to do exactly what I don't like doing. As I look around I see a tall man walking by himself towards the bench I'm sitting at. He looks up and catches me staring, but smiles and walks towards me more.

I look at my best friend and her boyfriend "I'm gonna take a walk." I know they can't hear me so I get up and start to walk towards an ice cream stand.

You see it's the middle of summer and I'm wearing a jumper with jeans. As I walk towards the ice cream stand I realise I'm pulling my sleeves around my hands and stop. I stare at my sleeves wondering if one day I will ever wear short sleeves or shorts again. I look up and see I'm standing right in front of that man that was walking towards the bench.

"Hi." He said, smiling like he couldn't be happier.

How can people be so happy while others around them suffer so much. I seem to question things a lot. About life mostly.

The man starts waving his hand in front of my face frowning "huh?" I say quickly. He chuckles "you okay?" He asks smiling. I fake a smile and say "Peachy. What were you saying?" I start to look around not trying to look at him in the eyes. That's the worse thing you can do. " Oh. I said hi. My names Hunter, what's yours?" He answered frowning. I frown and look at the ground "my name?" I said. He chuckled "yes. Your name." He replied.

I looked up at him and seen him smiling at me. I can't take it. Why is he smiling so much, and at me? "I- I'm sorry. " I said quietly and ran off. He started calling after me "wait! Miss wait!" I kept running. I don't want to tell him my name. That means that we would end up getting to know each other, and I'm not ready for that.

I no longer hear him calling so I turn around and see Joseanne and brad right behind me "Ryann why are you running?" She asked me. I huff a little bit of air trying to catch my breathe. "Nothing, I was uh, I was trying to lose some weight. That's all." I finished of smiling at my words. She smiled "alright that'a girl" she approves.

I know, I know, what kind of friend approves of losing a lot of weight and encourages it. Well you see she is the head cheerleader of the jets cheerleading squad. So yes she does. I have overheard that 'I was her charity case' she gives me money and shit all because I'm the city loner. So when she gives me money I save it up so when I kick her ass. I have money to buy cigarettes other than the rent money and shit from my work place. "Im gonna go to work." I said and started running off "you've still got five minutes." Joseanne yells after me. I smile and turn around walking backwards "its not soon enough" I yell back. I smile at her while she's pouting till I run into something hard knocking both whatever it was over along with me. "Ouch." I whisper then grab my head "I'm so sorry I wasn't watching where I was- hey. Its you again. I uh. I never got your name." He said trying to help me up. I refuse his help and stand up on my own. "No no. It was my fault I was walking backwards." I say then look and see one of my sleeves came up and you can see my cuts and scars. I quickly roll them back down and grab my phone to look at the time. 3:58 two minutes and i'll be late. "I'm late!" I yell and run off to the irish pub two blocks away.